lost by the world

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Skyler (POV)

 I wake up with my alarm ringing, I spread my arms and yawn a bit ,as I spread my arms I came in contact with a stiff thing which made me enable to spread arms comfortably, as I turn around to see ,I saw Christopher beside me sleeping safe and soundly.

His eyebrows spreads like a wing so beautifully, his curly hair was messed, I turn towards his side to face him I can't get enough of his beauty .I was insanely smiling like a maniac watching him sleeping.

As I was about to touch his birthmark, he opened his eyes wide and smile. I close my eyes as fast as I can, I don't want him thinking that I was watching him sleeping. After few seconds I turn to the left side of my bed and hit my self silently.

I found a pair of arms around me tightly hugging me, which made my breath hitched, and his face came in contact with my hairs ,I feel him smelling my hairs.

"You smell so good "he said in a husky morning voice.

I could not say anything in return as I was completely shocked by his actions and words, it's nothing like that he haven't praised me in past but he has never done this.

"You smell, you smell like some sweet fruits "he said again.

"Ummm... hmmm...thanks "I said and turn to right to see if he leaves me from his grip.

"I thought you were asleep, but let's say it's good that you hear it "he said and grin which made his eyes wrinkle a little.

"Don't you want to go school "I said and try to get out of his tight grip around my mid waist.

"Why so hurry, we have one hour left to go and we reach school within few minutes, let's just stay like this for a minute".

"Why?" I said in a grumpy tone, his closeness is affecting me a lot yesterday night.

"Please!" he said and buried his face.

I stay silently maintain my breath, being close to someone is good, but being close and not speaking is worst, I always have a fear of losing people in my life when my mom was about to get her surgery done, I was so afraid, and I thought I was losing her and that moment I relies I always have a phobia for losing people whom I care for.

After few minutes he didn't budge from his place, I shake his shoulder but he didn't respond.

"Christopher!Christopher!now leave me, we are getting late for our school! "I said and try to push him back.

He didn't respond again and dark thoughts starts getting into my mind, is he dead, is he having a heart attack, is he not going to wake up.

Tears start making its way and I shake him hard this time making him completely uncomfortable, I pushed him so hard that he was about to fall from bed but at that moment he suddenly caught the corner of the bed to make himself stable.

"What? Are you planning to kill me? "He said and faces me.

I took a relief breath, and punch him on his mid chest angrily; god knows what I was thinking about him.

"Why are you crying?" he said and came close to me.

"What Why? I thought you were dead, or you got a heart attack, I just, just..."I said and try to wipe my face.

"What! "He said and laughed it out.

"You think joking or fooling around is cool, you don't know how it feels to lose someone close to you "I half cried and said.

"What? What are you talking about "he said and try to wipe away my tears.

"Just leave, leave me alone "I said and try to get out from my bed but he suddenly got my hand and pulled me back which made me fall on his lap directly.

"What happen? At least tell me what I did? "He sound so hurt but what about his actions. He made me do this.

"Just leave, we will talk about it later, I'm not in the mood of talking "I said and got up from his lap.

"Fine, I respect your decision, but I need answer "he said and started collecting his bag, papers, and all his stuff.

I watched him collecting his things, he was doing it so motionlessly, like as we are forced to do our homework. He was done collecting his thing and was about to open the door but stop in midway.

"I'll come and pick you up for school, be ready "he orderly said.

"No need, I'll walk to school "I said. He walks back towards me and I walk back from my place until my back hit the wall.

"Please, don't talk to me like this "he said in a pleading voice.

"You should have think, before acting like dead "I said emotionlessly, though my heart was beating hard from inside.

"I'm sorry, I just wanted to feel that moment, that is why I was not moving, I wasn't acting dead "he said and took my hand in his.

"I don't mean to hurt you but please don't talk like this; it hurts "he said once again.

"Can we talk later; I'm getting late for school and I don't want to get detention slip "I said still stuck to wall.

"Sure, but you are coming with me, I'm dropping you to school "he said and turn to leave.

He left the door open and I was left alone in a silent room. I've always left with silent in my life, I never got the chance to shout it out what's bothering me.

I've always been afraid of losing people I care. Sometimes I wonder if there is anyone out there who is afraid of losing me, probably no because nobody care for me.

Tears make their way I thought today day was going to be good but it came out to be worst, I didn't mean to talk to him like that but I was petrified to see him motionless.

It's hard when someone was close to you few seconds back and now is far way because of silly mistake.

I got ready for school, making it a simple for today; I just wore a baggy sweater and jeans. I went down to cook something for breakfast. I made pancakes for myself and for Christopher. As he said he is going to pick me up, so if he is hungry he can have it.

I was waiting for him, I was scrolling  to my photos on mobile and saw my photo, in which I was smiling wide and my mom was running back to catch me, I still have some memory of that day, we went to beach and I was running to get ice cream and mom was running to catch and dad took our photo gods knows when.

I was looking for my birthday photo when I turned 16. That is when I hear a loud ring on the door. I switched my phone off and went to open the door, there he was standing like an angel, he pushed his hair back and remained outside.

"Don't you want to come in? "I ask and open the door wide so he can walk in.

"Aren't you getting late for school now? "He said in a cold voice.

"I made pancakes for you, would you like to eat? "I ask still holding the door.

"Okay "he said and walked in.

I went into kitchen and remove pancakes and gave him.

" You guys make pancakes differently because I've never eaten pancakes like this in my whole life, it so fluffy, soft and sweet "he said and took another bite.

"Yeah,I  know, we kind of make our kind of pancakes, my mom taught me how to make it "I said.

He completes his pancakes and I watched him. Watching him is like watching nature, perfect and beautiful and flawless, completely admirable.

We both make our way out and I sit behind him silently, without making any move or without even smiling towards him.