lost by the world

9

(Ice cream shop, image above...)

Sunday, went pretty fast and today again its Monday, Monday is like a YouTube advertisement which can't be skip,you just have to face it. I got up at 7:00 am by hearing a soft voices of birds, I sat on my window and put my right hand outside to feel the air I love doing this and watching birds and nature , a bird came and landed on right hand I was so flabbergasted, I enjoy that moment for a bit and as I trailed my left hand to pat the bird, the bird flew away that instant. I was kinda upset but they have ecstasy. After enjoying the nature  I walked to my bathroom and quickly took  a hot shower and did my morning work and came out. 

                 Today I was wearing a brown flora shirt with long black leggings and black leather jacket with a scarf around my neck and my all time favourite boots and also today I was wearing a black baggy beanie. I love different styles of hat and caps, I have fedora, beanie, beret and some normal caps.
   
          I went down and saw my mom ready to go somewhere, "good morning mom, where  are you up to?" I ask while placing my bag on the sofa, "For blood checkup, honey,! did you forgot that I have to go twice to check my blood pressure between this 25 days rest" She reply, placing breakfast at the table.

"So, should I come with you to give you a company" I said happily because I don't wanted to go school, I'm bored of going school everyday.

"No darling, you should go school, your dad is there with me, he is accompanying me" she chuckle and I groan.

I eat waffle with raspberry cream for breakfast,which my mom made early. " We are going Skyler, take care of you brother and yours" Mom said while hanging her bag on her shoulder and dad came out, he took mom's hand in his, now they were ready to go.

"Skyler be careful on your way to school and we will be back by 2'0 clock" dad said while walking out and mom falling his steps.

I have time because Emma haven't came till yet to pick me so till than I can watch some news, I start TV and watch some morning news, because news are important. I hear a door  bell, "yeah, coming" I walk to the door to see in the hole,  who is there? I saw Emma waiting outside impatiently, I open the door wide open and she walk in. She started walking towards kitchen and smelling like a dog like she was tracing something,"your mom made waffle with raspberry cream," she ask while dancing, "yeah, wanna eat, because we have time to go school, so you can have it" I said, walking into the kitchen. Emma loves waffle.

I left Tom, to our next door neighbour, whenever mom is not there and I'm in school,our neighbour handle Tom.

We reach the school on time,  sorry, I must say before time because we have to catch up with Katherine.

Katherine and I have English class 1st, which we both share. Katherine walk to class and I went to restroom, walking out of wash room I saw Trisha talking to some boys, she is always surrounded by boys though she have a boyfriend then also she throws herself at everyone and I just told her that once, because of which I have to face her bullies every now and then.

I started walking without making any noise  but, fate is not in my side and she saw me she bid bye to that boys and I shifted in my place, she came in front of me blocking my way. "Samantha, let me go please, I told you sorry so many times for that, but you are not ready to accept it, do  you? "I said getting irritate at her for spoiling my morning.

She threw away the beanie I was wearing, walked over it and yell at me saying you are good for nothing, you should just die and go to hell". I can't control my tears and I started crying, she walk by me and push me to the ground. I got up and saw myself in mirror and cry, Sometimes I feel like why do I even exist in this world, I had tried killing myself once while I was cutting an apple and I was super depressed I place that knife on my neck to slit it but at the moment Tom walked and I wasn't able to, and once I was all alone at home and I try to hang myself from  fan  but failed, I failed in my life and failed while suicide . I'm just a failure person who can't be good and successful again, no one can joint me and I don't have the balls to share it with someone So, I write my feelings what I feel and all.

I went to class after applying some make-up so, that Katherine don't come to know that I was crying. I walk to my class and sat and Christopher was sitting behind my table.

As he saw me, he smiled and I just shrugged him off and take my sit. lecture was going on when  I felt someone's leg was touching me, I drop my pen and went down to pick it up and see it is Christopher leg.

  I got up and started copying down what teacher has written on the board. This time I felt someone kicking me and I knew it was Christopher's leg, I turn around and give him my best glare, but he just ignore it, I continue writing again and again I felt that kick, I turn around    "Christopher please, stop it, are you insane, you don't understand English?" I said in an irritating tone. "What? what I did" he said while smirking,and making puppy face. The process went on and now it was out of control for me, so what I did was best in my favour, I kicked him so hard that he groan loudly attracting everyone's attention "what the f *** Skyler!" he said and I giggle so hard "watch your language Christopher" teacher said and everyone went back to their work. "what, what I did?" I said while making puppy face and turning the table. I'm not that good  at turning the tables but sometimes you can't just bare everything so you have to explode, and that is what I did.

I was walking to the hallway, it was almost empty because it was break time and I was going  canteen to meet Emma and Katherine.

    Suddenly I felt  like I was  pinned to wall and on top on me was Christopher  he place his left hand on the locker and my back was facing locker.

I started breathing so hard that you can particularly hear my heartbeat and no I'm not even exaggerating it. I'm not use to this things. And it was a boy so it was a lot new thing for me.

"Why did you kick me so hard in the class" he ask and now placing his right hand too on  the  locker which caught me off guard. I swallow the limp and stammer "I-I wa -was  doing wha - what you did, did to me" I reply in breathy and wobbly voice. "I didn't kick you that hard" he said raising his left eyebrow and biting his pink lips.   "I - I warn you so - so many times but - but you were doing continuously so I got mad at you and - and kicked you"I reply while my hands were fiddling with the hem of my skirt." Don't do that again, because of you I got detention  for swearing, and ear full from that Merry Teacher and this is the 2nd time I'm getting detention just because of you"  he said in orotund voice and with that he left.

I walked away from him as he took off his hand from the locker and came to canteen as fast as I can "what, took you so long Sky" Emma ask while opening her lunch box, "we are waiting from when!" Katharine speak and started eating from Emma big lunch box, something Emma bring tiffin from her home for us,"ummm sorry, we can start now" I said, taking my sit and placing my bag aside.

I went to Ice cream parlour after finishing school because today is Monday, I like working here, this place kinda distract me from the real world because mostly this place is filled with kids and children  and they don't harm me and say bad things. "hey, can you give an Ice cream, and here take the money," I hear a sweet voice, I bend down and that girl she is so cute and has a black hair. I took her money and gave her Ice cream, she was around 4 years old, she went to her mom and ask something to which her mom nod,she walked past her mother and went to a boy who was crying for god knows why? she walk to him and handed him the Ice cream, he smile instantly and kiss her on the cheeks.

This is why I love this place it is filled with love and not hate. I bring Tom sometimes here when he ask me to. He also love this place I think everyone in this world love Ice cream leaving the one who is going through sensitivity problems even though they like Ice cream, they can't have it, poor people!

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