lost by the world

24

We went out and Christopher went ahead of me to  get his bike, he is dropping me home as usual, and if I try to argue I know at last I'm going to fail so it's better shut up.

I sat behind him and he was riding slow, because I told him, I hate fast drive.

"Sky, Don't take my mom seriously, she is just weird, I told you" He said and I can clearly see in the rear view mirror he is telling lie.

"I got it" I said making him satisfy, that I'm believing him but I'm totally not! "Tomorrow is Saturday, what are you planning to do" Christopher ask.

"Nothing, just Netflix, eating and sleeping" I replied and I know I'm boring so I don't need to lie to him.

"So, are we friends?" Christopher suddenly ask and  caught me off guard.

        I think he is my friend,because he is not bad as I use to think, he is cute, he is helping me and today he helped me from being bullied. So, I guess we can be friends.

"Ye - Yeah, We can be friends" I said and saw him grinning and that damn  dimple appearing.

I feel just to take my hands over there and touch it.

"Thanks, Sky" Christopher said and I ask  a stupid question "Why"?

"Just take it and don't ask" He said and I felt so good for the 1st time after so long, no one  ever think of becoming my friend because I'm boring, I'm introvert and not a party wild.

My house came in view  and I got down. "Bye Christopher, thanks for ride, want to come in?" I ask and hand him his helmet. His helmet smells so fresh just like him

"No, I have work, I will come afterwards" He said and start his bike.

"Okay, bye" I said and start walking toward my gate.

"Bye, Sky, See ya" He said and drove off.

I went inside  my house, Christopher house is full of lights and happiness and my house is full of dark lights and sometimes happiness.

There is so much difference between him and me, his mom is so good and my mom is so ill though she is good but she spends very less time with us.

             I feel bad for my mother, she has to go through so many things and my life is like a caged bird, doing nothing just eating and studying.

My mom is her room  I guess I went to my room and throw my bag in the corner and hugged my pillow, I feel so lonely, I have no one who is close to me, no one share their things with me and neither do I, I don't trust anyone to whom I can disclose my loneliness.

I don't know when I started crying, I feel like I should end my life, I just don't do it because of my mom and dad, they are going through so much together and if I do something like this they will be completely broken, just because of me.

I express my feelings in terms of poems, and songs. I have a personal diary, I write my things in it, just to decrease my burden, by pouring my heart out to this book.

I have never show this book to anyone, I like to keep my things to myself.
I woke up at around 9:00 pm, I slept while I was crying, I guess.

I hear my phone ringing,  who the heck is calling me now, I won't pick up, I'm too lazy. It kept on ringing and irritate the hell out of me.

I walked to my table and pick my phone to see Christopher is calling. Why he is calling me now ,at this time?

I clicked green button, and hear his sweet and raspy voice.

What happened to me, from when I started calling his voice sweet,god help me and bring me out of his world.

"Hey Sky, what  are you doing?" he ask.

"Dancing! I reply getting annoyed by his silly question.

" I'm serious, Okay, what are you doing tomorrow? he ask again in a clam voice.

"I was sleeping, and your call broke my sleep" I replied.

"Okay sorry for that, I just wanted to ask you would you like to come with me, my friend is holding a party at his house and whole class is invited" he said in a matter of fact.

I know my answer will be no, but he is asking, 1st time a guy is asking me to come with him, but I know I will be dumb and overprotective to myself over there, so it's better I say no.

"No, Christopher, I won't be able to make it, sorry! I said in a monotone.

" Why? you said you are free tomorrow, you will be watching Netflix and all so it great to come and join us"he said.

First I'm a party poorer, If I went there I'm going to spoil Christopher mood and even  mine  so it's  better I just decline it.

" No, You can't understand Christopher, I can't come!" I said and try to close the discussion the matter.

"Okay, whatever you say Sky, But I'm on ,  so when you change your plan just give me a call" he said and cut the call.

Jesus, he is so stubborn and he says I'm stubborn, great, he is good at turning the tables.

I was not feeling hungry so I didn't went down, Mom  is  fast asleep I know, I'm only left with my laptop.

Christopher has  made sure I won't sleep by calling me and breaking my sweet sleep. I'm going to watch something on Netflix or on YouTube.

I went on YouTube and search for         'Golden Leaves' by Passenger. This song is so meaningful, I love songs which have deep meanings behind it.

I started humming the lyrics and while reading comments.

What's left to say when every words been spoken?
What's to see when our eyes won't open?
What's left to do when we've lost all hope and what's left to broke when our heart's are broken?

This lines is my favourite lines from whole song.

After hearing some songs, I started watching some shows on Netflix, it was 5:00am in the morning and I'm not getting sleep, after few minutes I started yawning and waters were dripping from side of my eyes because of lethargy.

I slept at around 5:30 am in the morning, keeping my laptop aside and its Saturday so I don't have to worry about my sleeping time.

I went to sleep covering my whole body whit my comfy duvet before observing my surrounding.

It was pitch dark, Sun hasn't rise yet, cold wind waving in air making me shiver a little, I can hear some bird singing and Street lights are on for pedestrians.

I was feeling so good, like watching nature is so refreshing, it make me feels like just enjoy your present without any tension of tomorrow and past.

I went to sleep after my quick observation. Dad and Tom will be back till Sunday so I have to be all alone for more 2 days.

Tom is the one who makes me busy sometimes, by telling me his rant about something or he even play with me.

****Please vote and comment ****

Note:
          Hey, guys, I know There are many typos in my story but I'm trying my best to overcome with it.

xoxo  - - - -