lost by the world

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Skyler (POV)

Dad car was invisible to me. I started walking to find a cab ,whole road was empty without any sign of cars, I was in my own world, I live in three world 1) normal world 2) my own world 3) book world .

My dad words were echoing in my mind about shifting from here to North Carolina ,it's nothing like that I've any problem with it ,it's just that I'll miss all of my friends, and Christopher .When you live with the closest person whom you have loved ,it's hard to leave them behind with nothing.

I always have a fear of losing people and death. Its natural though lots of people have fear of death .We know we are going to die and will have a peace full life with god ahead but them also we fear it.

Loosing person whom you have loved since your childhood is hard, it's like getting sucked by leech, it won't leave you until you are unconscious.

We all know what we will go through when we are dead, if our life would be like we don't had any knowledge of death it would be great ,some people would have enjoyed their life because sometimes we fear of what if we do something wrong we will get a karma not if here, then sure in hell.

You know how some say knowledge is power, but others say ignorance is bliss.

What if we all have spent our life in bliss, there would be no suicide and nothing, it could had stopped many problem.

I hear a loud honking voice; I walk back as my legs tremble a little. I jerked back.

"Do you want to die, then go and die somewhere else but not here in front of my car" a man speaks out from that car with a noisy voice.

"I'm sorry I wasn't looking for you" I said with a fear settle in my body. With that, the man left me standing there.

I found a cab, just as that man left, I reached my home safely.

I directly went to kitchen to eat something, I was feeling empty in my stomach, after I eat a lots of chips I went back to my room, I was looking outside from my window, this window hold back a lot of memories.

I was looking blankly at my mobile when it suddenly beeped; I saw a text from Christopher.

Christopher: what are you doing?

Me: nothing!

Christopher: okay.

Me: can you come over?

Christopher: Why? Already missing me!

Me: Who me? Never!

Christopher: then what happen? Why should I come over to your house?

Me: I guess we will complete our project as fast as we can, so can you come over? Now!

Christopher: okay. Bye.

He went offline. I started removing papers and school books and laptop which we will need to finish our project. I lie down on my bed until Christopher comes here.

I hear our door bell ring; I ran down and opened it. He was holding pizza box and coke.

"Come in" I said and opened the door wide open for him.

"Where is everyone?" he asked with a frown on his head.

"My mom wasn't feeling good so my dad took her to her mother's house" I said and started walking towards my room.

"Oh, so are you mom okay now?" he asked with a concern voice.

"Yeah, she is"I said and we both settle on my bed and Christopher opened the box of pizza and hand me one slice and took one slice for himself. After we were done eating we started our project.

"I don't know why people commit suicide or go into depression, like how? If you are going through rough things you should come out and ask for help "he said and surprised me with his words.

Most of the people who don't go through any of this, thinks this only. But they don't know how hard it is.

"People who go through rough things can't stand for themselves so what about going out and asking for help" I replied dryly.

"I didn't meant that, I mean you can talk with the person whom you are close too, and please and I'm not here to hurt your feelings, I know you have gone to through much you can always talk to me if you want too, I'm always by your side" he said and his words brought tears to my eyes .

"Thanks" I said.

"Now let's start our project , I'll search the content and you will note it down " I said and saw Christopher raising his eyebrows.

"What? "I said.

"I will write all the searched content and you will draw the graphs and diagram" he said.

"Okay" I reached my laptop and begin finding. We started writing our project .It was eight and a half hour, we completed three pages successfully. Christopher packed his stuff and stands to leave.

"Your parents aren't here till now?" he asked.

"They are not coming tonight, they will come tomorrow" I said and started placing my books on my table.

"So you are sleeping alone, won't you be afraid? "he asked.

"Yes, No!" I said and turn to face him.

"Won't you be scared?" he asked again.

"I've spent half of my life in fear, now they don't have any power on me "I mumble in a low voice to myself.

"What? What fear? I didn't hear you!" he said and came close, right in front of my face.

"Ummm nothing" I said and didn't look up to see his emerald green eyes.

"Sky, you should know that I'm always with you, to hear you, I know you have struggled a lot through bad things, but if you want someone to hear your deep fears I'm always there to hear you" he said and grasp my shoulder.

"Yeah, yeah I know, if there is any problem I'll tell you "I said and found him smiling wide.

"Are you going to sleep alone, are you sure?" he ask in a husky voice.

"Yeah" I said.

"But I can't leave you alone here, I remember that time when you slept alone and how Trisha and his cocky boyfriend came here and broke your  window glasses and threatened you "he said and drop his books on my table.

"But, I'm really fine, you don't need to be here, go enjoy your night otherwise your night will suck you up, because I'm extremely boring "I said and tried to stop him out from my door.

"Sometimes it's okay to be boring and silent rather than being chaotic and exciting" he said and didn't budge from his place .

His words always make sure to touch my heart. Whenever he is around me I feel secured, I feel like I'm not alone, and mostly I feel happy.

"I'll spend my night here, In your house, I don't want to leave you again like a mess" he said and sat on my study table chair.

"It's okay Christopher, just go, I'll be fine" I said and sat on my bed.

"No, I'm not going anywhere, I'm staying here" he said and remove his mobile from his pocket and ordered pizza, pineapple one and one normal pizza for himself and some chicken marsala with some rice.

"Christopher, its okay, I'm fine, you can see, so stop being stubborn and leave" I said.

"I won't" He said.

"Okay fine, but you will sleep where?" I ask as the thought of him being close to me appears in my shameless dirty mind.

"Lets talk about it later and wait for our food silently" he said while walking towards my bookshelf .

"Wow! You have such a great collection of books"he said while touching books like there are some purest things on earth. Well books are purest things on Earth at least for me.

" Yeah, I know,I love reading, being a reader is lot happier then being anything for me"I said.