lost by the world

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Skyler (POV)

We went to a nearby beach to enjoy our mission accomplished party.

I was sitting on a mat, Christopher went to take ice cream. I was enjoying the view, I usually like places which are silent and not too crowded.

"Here take your favorite flavour Ice cream" He said and join me.

We both were facing the beach while enjoying our ice cream but I felt something strange, instead of watching   waves Christopher was watching me with that same lust in his eyes.

"What?" I ask and shrug, and gaze  him, "Can I ask you something? " he said and I felt  twist in my stomach, what he wants to know now. "Umm Yeah,  go ahead" I said.

"Why did you slit your wrist and why don't you talk to much to people?" he said and waited for my answer.

Okay, I wasn't expecting this, I think I can tell him, I know he is not going to hurt me like other people do.

"You really want to hear?" I ask  while sitting straight. "Yeah, I'm all ears" He said and left me to start.

"I cut my wrist because of Trisha bullies, she bullied me every now and then, making my life whole miserable, because I told her she is whore who keep on whoring around boys and playing innocent, just because of this few true words she started bulling me. My life was completely miserable before you step in, I never go along with people around me, they treat me like I'm some  sort of disease, I never got a best friend to whom I can share this things, my mom on the other hand make me feel like bad, seeing her going through so much, I'm not able to see her cry in her bed every time because of injection or medicines, My Dad on the other hand cry for my Mom every time when he is alone, I never got a good memories from any of my friend, they all just come when they are in need.

Tears was flowing so fast and I started weeping but continued anyhow.

My old friends don't talk to me now, I never went to any party, I came across with you in a room where we danced, that was my first ever party, I feel so sick getting ignored by everyone, and when I was small I was treated like a shit by man who use to live beside our house, at that time I was small I never got the guts to say that to my mom, everyone around me made me feel like I should go and die. When I was in Seventh grade , I got a note saying that you should go and die, or should jump off the cliff because I was a burden to them, I have bad memories more than good, I never shared my feelings with anyone not even my mom, I was all silent, not playing outside always locked in my room not wanting to talk to anyone, because of all this things I became a depressed girl and socially awkward girl never wanting to get close to anyone, this is why I also have trust issues, People say that they will be with me but when I needed them the most they ditched me,  Until one day I decided to kill myself I have actually tried killing myself thrice, third time I got caught by you, I was feeling so pathetic and loser, I thought killing myself would be a best favour I can do   for people. People has hurt my feelings,,but later on I studied  keeping a fake and straight face.

Until you came, You made me feel like I'm worth living, you made me feel like there are so many ways to back up from bad things,just like today. Until you, I was just a lost person but now I feel like I have some people in my life who care for me including you"I said.

I finished  and wipe  my tears , "Sorry I, I spoiled your night" I said facing Christopher, he was burying his eyes in mine , for a mini second I felt like he will leave me, just like other people did,but I'm happy that I at least shared my small life with him.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to spoil your beach plan" I said and started walking feeling a dagger inside my heart I know he will leave me, nobody wants to be with a person like me.

"Skyler, wait" he said and I stop in that moment wanting to hear that he is not going to leave me,he believes me.

I turn around to face him, I was looking everywhere but him, "Skyler look up" he said but I wasn't able too.

"Sky, please look at me" he said in a concerned voice. I tried my best and face him and saw a complete opposite reaction from what I was expecting, he eyes were showing so much love for me.

"Don't take tension now, now that I'm with you, you will never feel worthless, I'm always with you as a friend, and I believe you", he said.

I saw his eyes watching my lips, I lick it, getting nervous, whenever I'm nervous I lick my lips.

He place his hands under my cheeks and his thumb rubbing my cheeks without any control, I was watching his eyes, his emerald green eyes, I never thought that I would be so close to him.

His eyes met mine for a second and again went to my lips, there were very few  people, mostly couples shoving there mouths in their partners mouth and some enjoying the view, the cold breeze making me shiver and Christopher touch was making butterflies in my stomach.

I feel Christopher coming close to me, his hands still under my cheeks, his eyes  met mine and with that he close the gap between us and  kiss me.

I was completely shock, I never  though that his lips will be kissing mine ,  his one hand was on my neck and other hand was behind my back caressing me.

His lips were so soft they were tasting like mint, he ate mint flavoured ice cream, he try to deepen the kiss while making me weak in my knees, I gave in, I can't take  it anymore, He slid his tongue inside my mouth and started a smooth flow, his tongue was too demanding, I don't know I  was doing it right, because this is my first ever kiss.

My hands made a move and touch his hairs, his hair smell so good, he is like a Tsunami in which I'm drowning second by second.

He kiss my lips  few more times with his closed eyes and he  get back leaving me blushing like hell while he was panting hard.

He was staring in my eyes as if searching for some answer.

"You like it?"he ask which made me  blush," Which friend kiss another friend? "I ask.

" Sorry, I wasn't able to control myself, you make me go weak in my knees when you lick your lips "he said.

" I won't do that again anymore "I said and started walking towards his car.
" Wait Sky, Did you like that kiss? "he ask while trying to stop me.

" Are you for real, you asking me  that? " I ask. His mesmerising kiss has messed my head, I don't know what to say, His kiss is repeating in my mind, again and again without any full stop.

" Yeah, I'm asking you that, did you like it?" He ask again and open his car door for me to enter, then he walked to his side.

"I don't know" I said with a shrug. "Okay, I'm not going  to push you, but I will definitely let you know that you are my 1st kiss" as he said that, and a grin approach on my lips.

"And just so you know, even you are my 1st kiss." I said  and saw him smiling, a full fledge smile which was reaching  his eyes and small wrinkles appeared.