Unhinged Desire (Unedited)

Far-away Kisses

Chapter Thirty Eight

~Teegan's POV~

I miss them so much. I understand why they needed to leave for a little, everything is just too much. I just got granted guardianship, yet I can't fully take care of them. Violet and I have way too much to deal with, the kids don't deserve to go through that right now. It's best that they stay away for a little, until things simmer down with us.

I blew up on Mikey a couple of months ago for him acting out because of everything happening. Then, just a few weeks ago, I let all of my frustration and anger out on Iris.

"Iris Quinn! Do not walk away from me when I am talking to you!"

She hastily turned around, her big brown eyes blazing, "You are not my mother! Stop acting like it!" She screamed, her body shaking.

I stumbled back, her words hitting me like a sledge hammer striking me right in my chest. It feels like I'm suffocating, my stomach quenching, my head feeling light. My mouth suddenly feels as dry as Aoulef, Algeria. I clench my hands into fists, my hurt turning into anger.

"Mother is gone, Iris. I'm your guardian now, whether you like it or not." I jibed, not looking her directly in the eye.

"She gone because of you!" She shouted accusingly.

I clenched my fists tighter and started hitting myself on my hip, trying my best to control my anger. I cannot blow up on her. She's going through a lot.

"Go to your room." I hissed, looking at the ground.

"I hate you." And she took off running upstairs.

Not holding it in anymore, I let the waterworks fall. I lean against the wall and slid down, my knees weak. Does she really believe I am the reason they died? Does she truly hate me?

I can't believe I treated her like that. I put my head in my hands and cried my heart out. I cried so hard my lungs were stinging, my head was throbbing in agonizing pain - I finally broke.

I shakily stood up and made my way to the front door, I blindly opened it and made my out.

Vi? I'm heading out. Watch the kids.

'The kids are still out.. What are you talking about?'

They're gone.

Ignoring her, I started running.

'Teegan? What happened?'

I pushed myself to run faster.

'Are you alright?'

I have to keep pushing.

'Where are you, dammit?'

I kept running, my lungs begging me to stop.

'Please! Where are you?'

I ran until my legs became jello. I ran until I couldn't run anymore. When standing even became too much, I collapsed. I fell into a panting heap of disappointed.

I failed my mother. I failed her as a daughter, as a witch, and most importantly; I failed her as Mikey and Iris' protector.

"Ah!" I screamed out, balling my fists and banging them on the hard ground. I started to sob uncontrollably, my whole body trembling.

"Sh, Teegan. It's okay, I've got you." I felt arms wrap around my fragile self and pull me close to his body, soothingly rocking me. "It's okay." He said in a mollified voice.