Unhinged Desire (Unedited)

Bitter and Lonely

Chapter Fifteen

~Violet's POV~

Do you ever just feel like everything is too much? Like from the second you wake up? I try stretching my arms out, but hit a sleeping Iris. I completely forgot she was sleeping in here due to nightmares last night. Michael had to sleep with Teegan. I'm not completely sure even Tee nor I could have stood sleeping alone. I sigh, but very carefully slide out of bed, as to not wake Iris. I walk downstairs and grab a glass of milk. I hear someone walk in and turn to see Tee, she does the same as me and we both sit down, drinking our milk, not needing words. The presence of each other is enough.

"Can you keep an eye on the kids? I mean they're still asleep. I just need fresh air for a minute, I'll be back super quick." I promise, a begging, yet somewhat demanding tone in my voice. I'm trying to ignore the anger I feel towards her right now over the journal. I mean she'll tell me eventually, right? I know that she should have already as my best friend, but she'll get to it. I can't help the hurt and anger I feel towards her for not telling me, but I trust her, so I'll ignore it as best as I can.

"Yeah, we'll be fine, but don't be out long. We really need to stick together these days." She says. I nod. I go up to my room and slip into black sweatpants and a black hoodie with my black converse. I grab my phone and slip out, silently. I head outside and down the road, taking in the sweet air. I just love walking around this town, there's just something about it that just calms me. I hear a noise behind me so I turn my head to see Jaxton.

"What do you want?" I sigh, irritated.

"Are you okay?" His voice still has that softness like with the kids, but I don't care. I'm so beyond done with his crap that I can't even take it anymore.

"I'm fine." I roll my eyes and turn back around. He jogs up and grabs my wrist, forcing me to turn back around.

"Violet, I'm sorry." He says. I raise an eyebrow.

"You're sorry? For what? I mean you keep saying it, so please tell me why. I'm begging you." I am beyond pissed and nothing he says helps anything. Not even the sweet sound of my name rolling off his lips helps.

"I'm just sorry that you're going through all of this." He sighs, letting my wrist go and using that hand to run it through his hair. I shake my head, rolling my eyes.

"Save it." I say, my tone showing how done I am.

"Violet, it's okay that you aren't okay, but stop trying to hide from everyone, because guess what? We see you. We see the pain in your eyes no matter how hard you try to hide it. None of this is your fault, that is clear to me now, so just stop hiding, because there really isn't any use in it." He says.

"You don't know shit, okay? So just stop. You can't be a complete ass to me for about a month and a half then suddenly just be nice because I've lost everything. It's clear at this point that you just pity me and I don't need it. So just save it all. Just leave me alone and stay the hell away from my family." I turn and walk away again, this time he lets me. I continue on my walk, not really feeling like walking anymore so I turn around just in time to see Zander appear.

"Great. It must be my lucky day." My sarcasm is beyond real.

"Violet, give Jax a break, okay? He is finally trying to be nice to you so just stop. You and Teegan both have clearly gone crazy due to grief, but you both need to calm down." Because I'm going to stand here listening to this, yeah right. I shake my head and walk around him. I'm walking past Blank End Engineering and get a glimpse of Jaxton. I sigh. I start walking towards the place and immediately Jaxton is out here.

"What are you doing?" He questions, body tense.

"Looking for you." I sigh. I don't really want to do this, but maybe he's right. I sigh just thinking that.