We are Forever (Book 6 in Nemi Forever Series)

Chapter 21

Nick

I prayed Demi would change her mind about having more kids. She was such an amazing mother, she needed to raise more awesome kids that would take over & change the world one day. Demi & I decided to honor our daughter by donating money to the hospital that took such good care of us & treated our loss with much respect. They were going to use the money to build a state of the art neonatal wing in the hospital & were going to name it after Delaney.

I climbed into bed next to Demi, the night after her checkup. She was sitting against the headboard, knees bent with her iPad resting on them, as she read. She looked so cute in her glasses. I leaned on my side, kissed her arm & slipped my hand on the underside of her thigh.

Demi scowled, not looking at me as she pushed my hand away. "Stop."

"You're good to have sex again, right?" I leaned my head on her arm, looking up at her with my puppy dog eyes, that she could never resist.

Demi sighed, impatiently & looked down at me. She put her glasses up on her head & I couldn't help but to smile. "Excuse me if I am not in the mood for sex. Is that all you've been thinking about?" She sounded annoyed. I shook my head. "I lost a baby, Nick. Please just leave me alone."

I flinched as if she smacked me. I laid on my back, staring at the ceiling. "I'm sorry. I realize you lost a baby, but I thought we could help each other feel good. Excuse me for wanting to make love to my wife after almost two months." I tried to hide my bitter tone, but I didn't succeed. "Good thing I got that pocket pussy." I mumbled before I closed my eyes.

I heard Demi sigh again, then heard her put her iPad on the nightstand. I felt her lay down next to me. "You know, I don't think you understand it completely. It's different for me. I carried her for 27 weeks. I had to give birth to her corpse. I had to have the dull ache inside my body, craving a baby to hold but couldn't." I could hear the tears in her voice.

I opened my eyes & rolled over to face her. "I do understand & I realize it is different for you. I'm still grieving, but I don't want us to have this space between us. I don't want us to drift apart or get so used to not making love, that we just don't even try anymore." I put my arm around her waist to move us closer together. "Remember when we talked about not having sex for months? Neither of us could even imagine it." I sighed, then smiled when she looked at me. "I miss you."

Demi took a deep breath & gave me a small smile. "Give me some time, please. I just don't feel that great yet. I'd feel guilty that I'm enjoying myself when I should still be in mourning."

I let out a laugh & rolled my eyes. "Baby, it's a great way to heal, to feel good all over." My hand moved to rub her skin, lightly. Demi grabbed my hand to stop it from moving. "Okay, how much time should I give you?"

"I don't know. Another month maybe?" She asked in a quiet voice.

My eyebrows went up, instinctively. "A month?" I groaned, quietly. "Well, I guess my pocket pussy & I will become very close." I grinned at her.

"I'm going to keep trying to change how I feel. I still love you more than life itself." Demi rolled on her side & kissed me as her hand caressed my face. "Good night."

"Good night." I pulled her to snuggle against me, sighing, now out of frustration. "I love you." I murmured against her hair.

I fell asleep, eventually, but quite a while after Demi did. I was horny as hell & worried about how this was going to affect our relationship. She was uninterested in making love & she used to have trouble keeping her hands off of me. I missed being that close to her, when we made love, when we were together as one.

About a week later, I was in the kitchen making a pasta dish for dinner. Demi came in, holding something in her hand. "What are these?" She asked.

I looked closer at what she was holding. "Oh, those are tickets for the big New Year's eve bash in Hollywood, that Joe is DJing at."

"Are these tickets for us or for Maddie & Frankie?"

"I already gave Frankie his & Maddie's tickets, so those are ours." I stirred the sauce in the pan on the stove.

"I don't want to go." Demi said in a stern voice.

"What? Maddie is turning 21 & this is her first new year's being legal to drink. She really wants us there."

"I'm not going to feel like getting all fancy & going out to celebrate. I have nothing to celebrate." She tossed the tickets on the counter & crossed her arms.

I turned to face her, leaning my hand on the counter beside the stove. "How about to celebrate your sister's birthday? Or celebrate the fact that the worst year of our lives is over & we can start over in the new year."

She rolled her eyes. "What's going to be good next year?"

"Um the fact that we're alive & our kids are healthy & you're going to do a movie with me. It's going to be a great year, Love." I smiled, warmly at her.

Demi sighed & walked toward me. "Fine. But we're leaving shortly after midnight."

"We're all going in a limo so we'll have to wait until everyone leaves."

"Oh whatever." She chuckled & groaned, then kissed me. When she pulled away from me, I grabbed her & held her to me. My kiss got a little deep & she pushed me off of her. "You better go get your pocket pussy." She snickered. "And she will be the only action you get on new year's, too." She smirked as she turned from me. "So don't get any ideas." She said over her shoulder.

"I'm not getting any on New Year's eve? Seriously?" I asked in disbelief.

Demi laughed as she turned to look at me. "Probably not, babe. I have no sex drive. I'm sorry. Dr. Anderson & Dr. West both said it's perfectly normal, after suffering a loss like I did."

"Fabulous." I went back to my pans on the stove & Demi went to get the kids so we could eat dinner. I really hoped she got her sex drive back. I wasn't used to this. Demi's sex drive has always been just fine, so I had a little apprehension in the back of my head. I tried not to think about it too much.

The next day was Christmas Eve & we were spending it with Demi's family, then everyone was coming to our house on Christmas day to celebrate. It was a good holiday, even though it was clouded with a little sadness, all of us feeling as if something was missing. Joe came up to me on Christmas day, while I was checking my sugar in the kitchen.

"I gotta tell you something." He said, a smile on his face, but also a tiny look of concern.

"What?"

"B's pregnant."

My face lit up in excitement, then I realized why he was concerned & I felt my face fall. "Well congratulations."

"We wanted to tell the family, but..."

I nodded. "I get it. Demi will be fine. She'll be happy for ya."

"We found out like a week or so after Delaney was... um.... born." Joe swallowed, not sure of how he should talk about that day. Was it the day she was born or the day she died? It was both, sadly.

"Wow, so she's pretty far along." I said, smiling.

Joe nodded. "Yea, she's about 12 or 13 weeks along. We're going to wait until after the new year & then we'll tell everyone."

I nodded. "Whatever is good for you guys. Demi will be okay." I wasn't positive, but I had hoped.

Joe put his hand on my shoulder & gave it a shake as he smiled at me. I gave him a hug before he left the room. I was happy for them. I knew Demi would be happy for them, even if she would be hurting on the inside. I took a deep breath as I headed back out to join my family to celebrate the rest of the holiday.