Fresh Start

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Last night I didn't get much sleep thinking about the following day, San Francisco, what if my parents somehow found out where I was and what I was doing and cane to show and hurt me.

I saved them the weight of hurting me.

Fresh cuts on my arms seared my skin. I was a crying mess last night, anxiously, and anticipation over meeting this person harassing me. I tried my best to sneak away from Daniel during the night, after everyone went to bed. I left having a complete panic attack, and balling my eyes out in fear.

I kept telling myself it would be over soon.

Worse, I couldn't tell daniel. I just couldn't. I could not bring myself to hand him the weight of my problems when he's in such a good spot in his career.

The San Fran show today will be a big one with a lot of fans. I'm still so happy for them. Which is the reason that I won't tell him and let him have a good time just like every other show.

Right now I'm sitting on the bus with a big Why Don't we hoodie and bandaged wrists from last night.

God why did I do that.

I clear my thoughts as everyone parades back in from breakfast. I told everyone to go in ahead and eat without me, I was not hungry the least bit.

"Kit last you sure you don't want anything to eat? You need energy for the show tonight! I brought you some left overs from breakfast! They had these really good lookin potato things—" Emma started but was interrupted

"Hash browns... duh..." jack butt in

"Yeah sure! They were like big tater tots! You should have some!" She said handing me the box of leftover breakfast from the restaurant.

"Thanks but no thanks Emma. I really don't feel like eating" I had smiled and looked at Daniels concerned face.

"Babe you need to eat." Daniel said grabbing my arm. I winced in pain and pulled it back. He looked scared but I played it off by crossing my arms real fast.

"Danny I'm fine I promise." I got up and hugged him.

"So what do you guys want to do today?" Aspen asked

"Well Jonah August and I are going out to take pictures at some different locations if you guys want to join?" Corbyn said.

"Kate and I can't we have a date planned" daniel winked.

"Yup sorry!" I smiled remembering last night and the events that lead up to planning our date.

"Aspen jasmine and I are going to get manis and Pedis!!! Jack and Zach you are welcome to come!" Emma looking excited.

"YES!! —EW NO!" Jack and Zach said together.

"I want neon pink on my tootsies!" Zach clapped.

"Grow up dude honestly." Jack said giving him the "what the heck" look.

"I'd rather not go and get all "lookin like a girl.." if you know what I mean... I think I'm just gonna go take some pictures with august corbyn and Jonah. Thanks for the offer though. Maybe next time" Jack said leaving the bus to join corbyn and the others.

I left for the back of the bus to start getting ready for our date. I was actually super excited for this date. Daniel and I hadn't been in one in forever. It took me a while but I finally decided on this.