Toxic. (Ethan Dolan.)

Part 42 - Awkward Smiles

Authors note.

boring af chapteer but ill update soon!!!!!

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It was a Monday. And I had spent the whole weekend in my room listening to music and crying. I hate crying, it makes me feel pathetic. Especially crying over Ethan. I missed him. And I wanted him back. But everything he had told me was a lie. And I can't keep going back. But I wish I could. I wish I could hear him jumping onto the balcony, I wish I could smile at him down the hall, I wish we could go on another late night drive and most of all I wish we could lay in bed and hold each other while we listen to music. My life had went back to being a bore without him.

I saw Grayson walking down the hall. He smiles at me softly and I smile back. I saw him meet up with Ethan from down the hall. Ethan looked at me and I quickly look away, putting my bag over my shoulders. Exams were tomorrow. I had wondered if Ethan would come. He didn't study. Well he didn't study with me. I was with him nearly everyday and night, so I had kinda guessed that he didn't study because I never saw him do so.

I went to my third class which was English. I took a seat and when I did Ethan walked into class. He took a seat next to the window and didn't take one look at me. He stared out the window with his arms crossed as he was slouched in his seat. Mr Smith came in and started the lesson. We did creative writing and he announced the winner of this weeks creative writing, which was the girl who sat near me at the back. Ethan was quiet this lesson, he wasn't calling out rude things. I think a lot of people are scared to read out there writing, because of Ethan's rude comments. I would be too if I didn't know Ethan like how I do now. He was quiet. He looked sad and tired.

Ethan's P.O.V

I went home after school and I bet Grayson here. He was probably at training. I never went anymore. Ever since I started hanging out with Kendall I put it all aside. My dad came down the stairs.

"Hey, have a good day?" He asked grabbing something from the fridge.

I nod from the kitchen table.

"Are you okay?"

I nod again. "Yeah, I guess."

"Do you have a sec for a little talk?"

I nod for the third time and my dad takes a seat on the table.

"The other night you said that you and Gray were... Bullies."

"Yeah." I mutter.

He sighed. "Do you want to tell me about that?"

I shrug my shoulders. "Gray and I treated everyone at school like shit. That's it really."

"And you nearly got expelled twice?"

"Mhmm."

He sighed again and gave me a sympathetic look. "And you might fail the year?"

"No. Not anymore."

"Not anymore?"

"The girl that came over the night. She was my tutor and she helped me pass the first exam."

"When is the next one?"

"Tomorrow." I simply say.

"Who is this girl?"

"Her name was Kendall." I reply. "She was... Cool."

My dad laughed. "She seemed like a nice girl. Even though I didn't really get a chance to talk to her."

"We broke up." I say with my head down. "On Friday night. Which is why I came home in a mood."

"Right-"

"I fucked up with her." I whisper. "She was the first girl I loved."

"Talk to her, Son."

"She doesn't want to talk." I say sitting back. "And I have to live with it."