Toxic. (Ethan Dolan.)

Part 46 - Confused.

"Ethan!" I yell walking after him.

He was storming down the hall with his hands in his pockets.

"Ethan, wait."

He pushed my hands off of him. And he looked me in the eyes.

"I can't do this right now, Kendall. I'll say and do things I don't want to do." He says before turning away. "Leave me alone."

"Just listen to me!"

"No!" He yelled turning back around. "I don't want to!"

"Ethan-"

"I can't fucking look at you without wanting to just turn around and run away. So what do you think I want to do when I talk to you, huh?"

"Why are you mad at me? I did nothing to you."

He ran his hands through his hair. 

I stare at him closely. "Well, what was that all about?" 

"I don't need you running after me making me feel better okay, Stone?"

I opened my mouth to say something but he cut me off.

"Just leave me alone, alright? You've done it before, I'm sure you won't be afraid to do it again." Ethan turned around but I grabbed him by the shoulder.

"No." 

"What do you mean, no?"

"I did nothing to you." I say trying to hold in my tears.

He just chuckled coldly and looked at me with a pity look.

"You screwed things up with us! You forced me to leave. You're treating me like nothing because I left you? Fuck you! You never loved me!" I cried.

"Don't fucking say that." Ethan whispered.

I was breathing heavily. "You never cared about me!"

"I said stop it, Stone." He spoke with anger.

"I put up with all of your shit for months! I took you back after the first lie, that turned out to be another lie. You didn't even come to the exam! Do you know how that makes me feel?"

"Did you run after me to yell at me?"

I shake my head and I look to the ground.

"I came to tell you that- I-I-"

"You what?"

"That I still love you." I whisper.

"A little louder, Stone."

"That I still love you!" I scream with tears rolling down my cheeks. "I still love you and I shouldn't."

He laughed and shook his head. "Let's face the facts Kendall. I will never be good enough for you-"

"That's not true."

"It is." He nodded. "In few months time you'll be going off to college. You'll forget this place, you'll forget me and the teachers. You'll find someone else who can actually look after you properly. Better than I ever did."

"I don't want anyone else."

"That's how it is." He said. "You and I aren't good together. We're two completely different people."

I didn't say a word and as I watch scartch his chin.

"I still love you too. And that's the hardest part. I don't make you happy. I make you angry and annoyed." 

"But that's what I love the most about you-"

"Trust me Kendall, it has to be like this. I'm sorry." He shook his head with tears falling from his cheeks. "I'm so sorry for what I have done. I'll love you forever, but I promise, this is for the best." 

And with that he left. Walking down the hall wiping his eyes. He left me speechless and in utter shock. I don't know what just happened. But he left me with my heart shattered and broken. I just wanted him. I still loved him. And I didn't care about the lies anymore, I needed him. The best was with him.

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Authors note

Yo so i'm so sorry i didn't update today, but in the weekends i don't have much time to write which is really weird bc i should have a lot of free time hahah. But tomorrow is monday (If u live in nz it is monday haha) so i'll probably be updating a lot tomorrow hopefully!!! thank you for reading the story is probably over soon! But let me know what u like, or whether or not i should write another fanfic bc i have another idea for a story!!! fangiiuuu for reading means so much to me , cheersssss.