Once Upon A Royal Love

Chapter 18

As I sat in bed reading my book there was a knock an my door. I looked up from my book to see Sophie.

"Are you still mad?", She asked with a baby voice.
I was trying to give both her and William the silent treatment. It obviously wasn't working.

"I'm sorry", she said.
I sighed, placing down the magazine I was pretending to read.

"I'm not mad. Well, not at you. I just wished you would of warned me before you send me into a set up", I said.

"He said he just wanted to talk", she said defending him.
"Oh. Trust me. We did more then talking", I said.

She walked into my room, sitting on my bed. "Why can't you forgive him. I mean I know he hurt you, but that's love. You'll always get hurt. One way or other", she said and was absolutely right.

"Not like this, Sophie. He hurt me, and I still love him. I mean, I lost it. I couldn't control myself around him, I kissed him.. losing my focus. And now he probably thinks I still want him.", I said throwing my hands up in the air.

"But you do", she said.
I didn't answer.

"You know you aren't over him. I know it. He knows it. Even Ms.Trudy knows it", she said.

"I do. But I don't want to get hurt. Not again", I said.
"Eventually, you'll have to talk to him", she said.
"And then until then... I will try my best to avoid him", I said.

"Let's go get something to eat", she said.
I grabbed the bed post telling her no. I didn't want to go downstairs. "Oh. No. You don't", she said pulling me.

I sighed, as she over powered me, and grabbed me as we walked downstairs, going into the living room, the girls sat watching Pretty Little Lairs on TV.

"You girls hungry? I'm thinking pizza?", Sophie asked.
"Yeah", Amber said getting up from the couch.

As the door bell rang.
"But to bad I already ordered Chinese", Sophie smirked. The girls scuffed and awe'd.

"I'll get it", Sophie said.
As she went to open the door, I walked to the living room, digging into the bowl of popcorn, "what season are y'all on?", I asked Sara.

"Season 4... I think A is Ari. I mean it has to be, right", she said.
Little did she know.

"Alex?", The voice called out. I turned to see William standing in the dorm house next to Sophie.
I sighed.

"We should talk", he said.

-

I stood outside standing in front of his car as we spoke. I looked a hot mess. My hair was in messy bun, I was wearing house clothes, I mean I honestly looked like a bum.

"Okay. Talk", I said crossing my arms.
"You're mad?", He asked as if that wasn't clear already.

"You tricked me into going into a room, and we had a make out session in school, like I'm some whore", I said.

"You kissed me. I honestly just wanted to talk", he said.

"Oh. Please. You did that on purpose. You were using your voice and eyes.... And did that biting your lip shit... And you knew what was going to happen. You wanted me to kiss you", I said.

"Your so stubborn", he said.
"So why do you even bother putting up with me? Girls practically throw themselves at you, and you are waisting your time over here on me.", I said.

"BECAUSE I DONT WANT ANYONE ELSE. ALEX. I just... Want you.", He said raising his voice and then lowering it.

"I've been miserable without you. Okay.", He said.
"I can barely sleep. I can't focus on my school work. I just miss you. I miss what we used to have. I miss us.", He said.

I didn't know what to say. He's apologize over a thousands of times, and now I just I feel bad. Because time after time, I don't forgive him.

No. He deserves this.
He hurt you. Made you look like an idiot.

"Please just say something", he said.
"I- I think you waisted your time coming here", I said with no emotion.

He look speechless.
He shook his head.

"So that's it we're just... Over? Huh?", He asked.
"We've been over", I said.

"If this is what you want? I won't apologize anymore. I won't chase you anymore. I'll just... I'll let you go", he said as those words hurt me.

What was I doing.
I loved him.
I knew I wanted him.
But something was telling me not to let him back in.

Let me go?
What the hell does that mean.

"I'm sorry.", Is the only that came out my mouth.
"Goodbye, Alexandra", he said getting into his car.

No.
Please, don't drive.
Get out of the car, and tell me how much you want me. How much you can't live without me. How much you still love me.

Don't put on your seat belt.
Look at me.
Please.

He back out the driveway, turning the car around, and speeding out of the driveway. My heart dropped, I felt this pain in my gut.

Like someone grabbed a knife and stabbed it into the middle of my stomach, and twisted it. I quickly walked inside with the girls pretending as if they didn't see everything that just happened.

Since being they we're at the window the whole time.
"Alex", a voice called out.
I ignored to the voice running upstairs into my room, slamming the door.

I couldn't control myself anymore.
I began to break down.
I was crying uncontrollably.

I love him.
He loved me.
But loving him hurt.
He hurt me.

I laid in the bed staring at the ceiling, I didn't want to be bothered. I didn't want to feel anything. I just wanted to be alone.