The Elementals II: Knit of Fate

A person who's unlikely to visit a student...

The feeling was so uncomfortable when you have spoken such great advice to some persons whom you think are better than you logically. But let’s accept it, we have weak points and actually it wasn’t their fault alone. The only wrong in them is that they let the society dictates what must be right. Oh well... So much for that.

            I still can’t accept the fact that Nai’s gone for good.  It’s just like the feeling was awkward. Alright, your friend is dead, he’s gone, and you should weep, No! I felt the urge of looking for him, double checking every detail but what can I do?  I’m not an investigator but for now, if he’s really dead then may his soul rest in peace.

            Of all the people in Sir George that you can come across with after talking about Nai’s departure (it’s better to use departure here, I don’t really like the feeling of hearing or saying the word death), why the FAMILY? Why of all the people who knows Nai, why the FAMILY? Why do I ask? It’s because I don’t know what to say...

            All the ladies in the group look upset yet they don’t appear to be in vain. But if I were to compare who’s more upset between them and Clarice and Nicolei, these ladies are.

            My tongue started to retreat down to my throat when they saw me approaching. And whatever I say, hope its right...

            “Ahhh...” I started a conversation when they were about to enter the room of Bugui and Nai, “I’m sorry about Nai.”

            They all look at me expectantly and for that, I felt I have to say more, “Look, I know Nai and I were not like super friends but I-”

            “We understand Elly.” Nenith smiled but sorrow in her eyes. “We both share the same loss but life goes on. Our life wouldn’t stop due to one’s death. We have to continue fighting for Nai.”

            “So you too believe that Nai’s still alive?” I asked in excitement and this made them look at me, really surprised.

            “Elly...” Adimah said which kinda awakened the butterfly cocoons in my stomach, “Death is really hard to accept. The more we indulge ourselves in believing that Nai’s still alive, the more we can’t move on.”

            “It’s best if we accept it earlier than to be disappointed later.” Japple said looking straight at the floor, “Hoping for something that’s already gone. Move on Elly.”

            “But-” I tried to protest, to ask them why it is easy for them to give up on their friend.

            “We really appreciate your sympathy Elly but can we excuse ourselves for the moment please. We have things to do.” Nenith said and they entered the room.

            I was left staring at the door of Nai’s room. The hallway so quiet that the only sound you’ll hear is your breath. I wish I can say more. I thought I have finally adapted to what this world offers but I guess, I should try harder to fit in. But I swear, I won’t be like them. I’ll fit in completely someday but my thoughts, my opinion and my stand shall remain forever.

Going inside my room is the best thing to do that time. I can’t stand talking with another friend about their principles, elemental principles. Sighs...

            The room is still cozy cool and the hearth was carefully tended and the painting of the five elemental dragons on the wall was back to normal after I was smashed over it shattering it to pieces. I wish you know how painful that was, but don’t try it at home or anywhere, just don’t do it... Nothing is changed, it is right exactly the room I first entered during my first year.