The School Player (Book 1 of Player Duology)

Thirty Seven

Note: This is the last chapter of Book One. The second book is called The Heart Player and you can see it on my account.

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Dapat kapag prom, masaya diba?

Eight months passed, Hindi naging masaya yung pamimili ko ng Gown or even choosing my shoes. Wala rin akong pakialam kung ano maging ayos ng mukha at buhok ko, Whatever my Mom puts on me.. Yun na yon.

I suddenly miss my friends, pinagplanuhan namin yung prom dati.

I can't believe I'm about to say this but I miss Manila, even the humid weather and the bumper to bumper traffic.

"Kath, Open your eyes now." Halos mapapikit ulit ako noong binuksan ko yung mata ko dahil sa ring light. Natural na makeup lang ang nilagay ni Mommy. Yung over dramatic lang naman yata yung fake eyelashes, but this is fine compared to my natural lashes at least mukhang may buhay.

Napansin yata ni Mommy na wala akong reaksyon, natauhan din ako noong oras na yon kaya agad akong ngumiti "Hala! Thank you, My! Thanks for making me look like a human again!"

"Shut up. You're pretty, Anak." she said as she stared at me reflection, nawala ang ngiti ko non. I sensed something, she did too. "You missed your friends, ano?" she asked. Wala akong magawa kung hindi tumango, no need to hide from my mother. She knows me too well.

Nakikita ko yung lungkot sa mata ni Mommy. Minsan naiinis din ako sa sarili ko, madalas yung pagaalala sakin ng mga magulang ko at pilit na sinabi na bumalik nalang ako sa pilipinas dahil mas masaya daw ako doon. I'm not happy there, dito oo. Bakit hindi nila makita?

"My, Wag ka ng magalala. I'm here to grow myself more, what happened back in the philippines is just a fertilizer for my heart and mind. I need to feel the pain in order to grow."

Isang araw kasi, inopen ko kay Mommy yung nangyari sa amin ni Daniel. Nagulat siya kasi akala niya, hindi totoong naging kami talaga. Hindi niya naman ako pinagbawalan dahil alam niya na alam ko ang mga limits ko. She openheartedly listened to all my rants, kilig moments, sad times and my pain. Dahil si Brix lang kilala ko dito, hindi ko padin maoopen sa kanya yung mga ganon. Only a girl can relate, so I made my mom my bestfriend.

She slowly smiled, hinawakan niya yung dulo ng buhok ko na kinulot niya kanina. "Unang pagibig pa lang naman iyan, Anak. Marami pang darating, Marami pang pangyayari ang dadaanan sa buhay mo. Basta tandaan mo lang, don't ever lose yourself. Always know your worth and happiness. If it goes bad, that's not your true love, it's just a counterfeit love. God already has plans for you, just wait for his right time." she kissed my forehead and stood up, "Tatawagin ko na kapatid mo, You guys should head out."

Slow music covered the whole gymnasium when I entered. Hawak ko yung braso ni Kuya Diego habang papasok kami sa loob. We took the obligatory prom picture and talked to some of his friends that he surprisingly get along really well. Isang taon na ko dito pero tatlo pa lang ata ang kaibigan ko. Marami akong acquaintances for sure, but I only befriended with a few people.

Ugh, Malungkot nanaman, Kath?

🎶 I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins all of your straight blind eyes wide on my plastic toys then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere