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Chapter 10 - A New Life

The Darker Side Of The Moon
Book 4 of the Black Moon series
Chapter 10: A New Life

Friday 24 September 2010

"So, Mr. Brown..."

I am here, facing this sturdy man called Peter Finnigan, and that's on Gary's demand. More or less.

As part of my personal goals, Gary has asked me to decide on a career path and find a serious job. He left me a few days to ponder things and finally make my mind on what I would really like to do. Laze all day was definitely not an option, but I really had a hard time determining in what kind of job I would like to spend eight hours a day for the next forty or fifty years. I must admit that his help was welcome in that matter and what counted the most in the end was his reassurance.

He made me write down a list of all the things I like and dislike. Moving, being outside, creating fell in the first column. Being indoors, having to sit at a desk, keeping quiet fell in another. I have never been a school-friendly person; using my brains all day is not my kind, at least not if I have to stay still. Gary easily established that I needed a manual job, but it didn't sit very well with me at first. Not that I was ashamed of myself, but being with such a clever man as he is, I felt somewhat diminished in the beginning and I wanted to make him proud of me. I knew that our relationship was temporary but while it lasted, I wanted him to take pride in the fact that his Submissive is a smart guy, so working with my hands didn't sound smart enough to me.

I perfectly recall this conversation we had about this a couple of weeks ago and how he got pissed at my reasoning when I exposed my thoughts on that matter. We were at his place in the living room. It was time for another of these moments when he wants us to have open discussions on my progress – moments during which I am also allowed to express my opinion on our relationship. It was the evening, just before dinner, and knowing that I had annoyed him mostly meant I might not get much pleasure in his playroom that night. The conversation quickly escalated to an argument, and as much as those moments were meant to be open, I am still supposed to address him with respect; which I clearly lacked. He asked me to strip naked – should I say that this humiliation part always arouses me? – and kneel at attention in front of him.

"I'm going to make things clear, Pet. I'm not asking you to become an engineer, or a scholar, or a scientist. What I demand is that you find something you will blossom in; something that you will like to do for a living. There is no shame in being a rather manual person. You clearly don't want to work with your brains all day. Once again, there is no shame in that, and that doesn't make you any less smart. You are a brilliant young man, Pet, and you'll be even cleverer if you accept that some people do work with their brains and others are more skilled with their hands. Both categories are needed in this world and the important thing you need to understand is that what matters is that you enjoy yourself at work.

"All I want is for you to find something that will motivate you to give the best of yourself and for which you will happily wake up in the morning. That is what's going to make me proud of you!"

After this speech, I started to see things a bit differently. I felt less diminished. Gary gave me self-assurance and once I had accepted these facts, it was much easier to determine what I really wanted to do. I remembered how as a kid I loved to help my father when he was doing works in the house and I realized it was something I could like. It turns out that Gary has some men building a veranda at the back of his house at the moment and the boss was complaining on his current issues with finding motivated employees. Gary mentioned this to me and suggested I should contact the guy – on my own, without him interfering – to apply for a job.