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Chapter 24 - Heaven Or Hell?

The Darker Side Of The Moon
Book 4 of The Black Moon series
Chapter 24: Heaven Or Hell?

Jeremy's POV – Wednesday 26 August 2015

This voice.

This deep voice.

This is the voice I have been craving to hear for so long now and I guess my mind is playing new tricks on me.

I am lying in the comfort of a bubble of haze and a thick fog is blurring my head, but I like it. It's been like this for some time now, and as long as it keeps me dizzy, I am fine with it. I don't really like the idea of being drugged, but it's so much better than what I have endured for the last year and a half. There is no pain. No feelings. Just plain oblivion. I guess I will have to pull out of here at some point, but please let me enjoy this for a bit longer before I come back to reality.

Weirdly enough, I'm aware that I'm under the influence of some sort of drug. I don't believe in hereafter, so I know I'm not dead. Sometimes, I wish I was. That would spare me the harshness of reality when the substance in my system fades away. I have seen it a couple of times before and trust me, I'm not eager to face it again.

I thought the scary and painful five or six days I spent struggling in the forest would have made me a free man. I thought that luck was finally on my side. I hoped I was finally given a second chance to start a new life or at least resume the one I had before.

But I was wrong. I was totally off the mark. Fate is determined to ruin my life.

I managed to run away from my captors. I endured hell in a hostile forest for several days. And what for? Only to find myself the captive of someone else. A woman. Several women, I believe. Oh, they don't seem to be treating me badly. I think they even tended to my care, mended my injuries. I sleep on a rather comfortable bed and I'm not naked. But I am still fucking tied! Is this hell ever going to end? I can't believe I would finally escape from my previous captors to get caught by new ones! Women at that! I hate the irony of fate.

Anyway, once again the effects of the drugs seem to fade, and my brain becomes less and less dizzy. I begin to hear people talking around me and I try to push those voices to the back of my mind. This time, there seems to be a man, but as I catch a few words, it scares me. He's talking about abduction and sexual abuse at some point and I get really frightened. Has he been sent by Andrei to get me back? Please God, not this... I don't think I could survive it.

But then suddenly, there is this voice.

A voice I could recognize among an entire crowd of people talking at the same time. This voice belongs to the man I love. The one who helped me to get a better life back in the days. The man I was about to confess my love to just before the tragic events.

What the hell is he doing here? Is it really him I can hear? Or is my mind making fun of me again, just reproducing my deepest fantasies? The ones in which he would come and save me from hell. I am so persuaded that this is only an illusion of my mind that I can't really get what he says.

It almost feels like being in heaven, though. I love the sound of his voice. I would definitely endure any kind of torture if I were to see him again. Hear him. Feel his touch on my body. And yet, it doesn't completely assuage my worries. I am scared to death now.

Why? Because if I can really hear him while I am still a captive – of Andrei maybe – it means that the bastard put his threats into action and abducted Gary too. And I just can't deal with that.

Panic is seizing me now. I wish the drugs had kept me dizzy for longer in the end. I don't want to wake up in another nightmarish situation where I see the man I love suffer because of me. This is too unfair, and guilt is washing over me. There are deafening screams piercing in the room as I thrash around and try to free myself from my restraints, but I soon understand that they are mine. The adrenaline fueling through my veins is sadly not enough to break the ties, but I won't give in. I need to go to Gary's rescue!