{ #4 } The Darker Side Of The Moon (MxM || 18+)

Chapter 45 - I Want My Dominant Back

The Darker Side Of The Moon
Book 4 of The Black Moon series
Chapter 45: I Want My Dominant Back

Jeremy's POV – Monday 28 March 2016

Mmm the comfort of a warm bed in the morning after a good night of sleep, that feels good. It would be even better if I had my man to snuggle against but it's not the case right now, I only have his pillow, so it dampens a bit my delight. I can hear him finishing getting ready in the attached bathroom and I can imagine him in one of his beautiful business suits.

Soon enough, the door opens and the mattress dips beside me. Damn! He smells so good! Soft lips come brushing against mine and I pull him for a deeper kiss, surprising him as my eyes were still close.

"Do you really have to go?" I ask in a whining tone.

Something occurred over the weekend with one of Gary's most important customers in the US and he needs to spend some time in the London office today.

"Yeah, Baby, I have to. I need to sort this out and my father wants to attend. But I'll try to come back early enough," Gary replies softly.

"It shouldn't take that long... Isn't it just a conference call with Bruce?" I ask pleadingly.

I so much prefer when he works from home. Even if he's locked into his study, I still feel his presence and I am less alone.

"As you can expect, the call is not scheduled until 1pm but I need to study the case with my father this morning and then we'll probably have to debrief and make decisions, then call the customer, but I promise I'll try my best to keep it short. I've got to go now, I'll see you later this afternoon. Don't forget your appointment with Dr. Fenton at 2pm," he says softly before he pecks my lips once more and pulls away.

"Have a good day, Gary!" I reply with a small smile as he walks out.

"You too, Baby!"

Once I have heard the entrance door being locked downstairs, I roll myself back into the comforter and close my eyes. The last few days have left me feeling a bit weird and I am quite eager to meet with my therapist this afternoon to discuss various things with her. When I say weird, it means that I have been confused as to how I should be feeling since last Friday and what happened that evening. And the few days before of course. That's why I asked for an additional session with Dr. Fenton.

I don't know what got into me exactly. Or yes, I think I know part of what got into me. I should have discussed my desire to return to work with Gary before starting job searches. He has obviously been the best to guide me ever since I met him years ago, always providing me with the best advice. The way I healed from my traumas after my captivity is only more evidence, so I should have known better than do deal with this on my own and behind his back, especially as Dr. Fenton said I should only start thinking about my future. At the same time, the outcome has triggered so many things within me...

When Gary found out about that appointment I had just made with a potential employer, he became really angry and I got to see the real Dominant in him again. The fact that he yelled didn't scare me, it just surprised me because he has been so patient since our reunion last August. Seeing him go all Dom on me was... impressive. And thrilling! The conversation we had after his outburst and his useless apologies – Gosh! Why did he think he had to apologize for yelling at me when I was the one to talk back first? – was like an epiphany to me.

Gary was right as usual, and on so many levels! Of course, I wasn't entirely ready to face the outside world again! I may be more comfortable going out alone now, it doesn't mean I am ready to interact with many people I don't know. Besides, like he said, it would be stupid to accept any job when I have been trained to masonry and I still love it. Sure, I didn't practice during my seventeen-month captivity, but with all the renovation works I've done in our Kensington house, I can tell that I haven't lost my skills, so it wouldn't be a problem getting back to it.