The Assasin's Revenge

Chapter 19 { mending hearts }

C19

MARK's P.O.V

I'm now standing at the stage still confuse of what happen between us. I don't know why she is so mad at me, she didn't even care of giving an explanation she just broke up with me, no she didn't even give us a closure basta nalang siyang nan lamig damn! and it hurts fvcking hurts... she's my first serious girlfriend and I cant afford of losing her not now, not ever. I look at her a while ago but she just give me a cold and blank stare and it stab me to death.

When everything is prepared I started strumming my guitar.

(now playing: angels by mayday parade)

Three years of something I call love
When the phone calls and photographs are never enough
To save a heart that's been broken so close to screaming
This can't be happening, I must be dreaming
What's the worst that could happen? I never knew
When all I ever wanted was to get away from you
But now the possible's impossible and I can't refuse
Grab all your dreams and raise all your glasses

Let's toast to the lucky ones
To the girl that just broke my heart
I can't breathe after all that you've told me
You took my heart and made me melt again

I know I look like a fuxking idiot here, but damn! If this the only way to be able to let her know how our situation effin hurts then fine! I'll be fine to look stupid here.

I could never imagine we'd end up this way
After all that we went through now I'm biting through the pain
It's like this heart that's been broken so close to screaming
Was ripped from my chest and I can't stop the bleeding

I can't sleep at night thinking why we ended up this way, we were happy the past days, but after nung kukunin ko sana yung kapatid ko kinabukasan nun she started ignoring me and giving me cold stares. Akala ko nakakatakot na ang dati niyang mga mata yung blanko at napaka mysteryoso, but damn! Her cold stare is scarier than that.

Now we all fall for the bad ones
They'll just break us cause we're so young, dumb, and vulnerable
Young and vulnerable

Here's a toast to the lucky ones
To the girl that just broke my heart
I can't breathe after all that you've told me
You took my heart and made me melt again

I put your picture in a frame to stand at the side of my bed
So whenever I get sad I can stare at your face
Not overplayed that I won't forget
When all I remember is talking is cheap and you're eyes were expensive
And god only knows when I'll come to my senses
Now I can't breathe at all (now I can't breathe at all)

Nagmumukha akong tanga sa bahay naming, I keep on staring on our pictures , nao-obsess na ata ako sa kanya.

Here's a toast to the lucky ones
To the girl that just broke my heart
(You ripped apart these pages)
I can't breathe
(Our love was overrated)
After all that you've told me
(This breaks up all these questions tell me what happened)
You took my heart and made melt again

along the song I just keep on looking at her. Most of the lyrics of this song is what I really feel. After singing I go down at pupunta sana kay Maria pero tumakbo na siya paalis ng gym. So I chase her. I wont let this day pass na hindi ko malaman ang naging ugat nang away namin.

" maria please stop.. lets talk please! Stop being selfish"

" talaga lang hah? Ako pa ngayon ang selfish eh gago ka pala eh"

Good thing she stop now I can talk to her.

" ano ba talaga ang kasalanan ko, tell me!"

" gusto mong malaman, ikaw kasi ang gago mo, nakita lang naman kitang may kamilagrohang ginagawa sa isang hotel or should I say motel, now tell me wala na ba talaga akong karapan na magalit hah?! I was hurt badly hurt, hindi ko alam ang ganitong pakiramdam mark, I'm foreign to this goddamn feeling! gusto kong patayin yung babae, pagbuhol buholin yung mga bituka niyo god knows ilang beses kong pinatay yung babaeng yun sa utak ko, but you what kahit anong isip ko nang masama sa babaeng yun it all ended up, na ako yung mas nasasaktan, na sa huli ako yung niloko at pinagmukhang tanga nang taong minahal ko nang sobra. tapos sasabihin mo na wala kang alam? Hindi ba talaga ako sapat? Sinasakal ba kita?"

" shit!!"

"shit ka rin!! Sumagot kang gago ka!! Sabihin mo, mark ano ba ang kulang sa akin? May kulang ba ako o sadyang hindi mo kayang mahalin ang taong katulad ko, answer me mark, goddamn please answer me, mababaliw ako mark, please"

" no maria please.. don't cry stop crying ako ang nasasaktan niyan eh you don't get it, it was not me"

" not me your face"

Ano ba yan.. is my role here keep on chasing here? I chase her, no choice and I drag her at the back of our building.

" listen maria okay? listen"

" ayoko, no! no! hindi ako hmmmmm"

She keep on pushing me, kaya hinalikan ko siya she look surprise.

"that's the best way to shut your mouth, now listen okay? Hindi ako yung nakita mo. It was my brother "

"anong brother eh ikaw nga yun mark pa nga ang tawag sayo nung babae mo, sinungaling! Huwag mo akon g pinagmumukang tanga dito nyeta ka!"

" arrgh! Bakit ba ang daming salita niyong mga babae, ang problema sa inyo parating tamang hinala eh, galit kayo agad hindi niyo pa nga naririnig ang parte namin now listen kung ayaw mong rapen kita dito mismo. hindi nga ako yun, it was my brother, my twin brother to be exact"

" hindi mo sinabing may twin ka! , tsaka akala mo ba maloloko mo ako!, at sinong nagsabi sayong papayag akong rapen mo, neknek mo!"

"Really?"

Saad ko sa kanya habang lumalapit sa kanya, she swallow hard at humakbang pa atras, it's the building's wall kaya wala na siyang maaatrasan, lumapit pa ako s akanya, and I saw her close her eyes, I want to burst into a laugh because she look so damn cute... I kiss her forehead, her nose and her lips, I want to kiss her more but I know now is not the right time.

"open your eyes"

I told her and she immediately did I show here my picture with my twin.

" believe now?"

" eh bakit mark rin ang pangalan niya diba bawal yun?"

"tsss his name is Mark Duke Villamore"

" so its not you? You didn't cheat on me?"

"of course why would I you know I'm more than head over heels with you, im not like my brother he's a Casanova always have a girls everyday"

" I'm sorry marky"

" tsss... imiss that.. I Love you, maria.. okay always remember that, lets go? Huwag ka kasing tamang hinala agad, hindi mo naman ikakamatay na marinig ang side ko."

After that conversation we head back to the gym and warding na sa nanalo and of course it was team awesome.. don't blame with the name it was Janet and Tyron's idea..

After receiving our awards we head back home.. lagot yung kapatid ko nayun kasalanan niya ito lahat..

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NEXT chapter po.. doon na may mga hints about sa kanya... heheheh.. di ko pa muuna siya I po-post one chapter pa kasi.. gagawan ko pa siya nang makakasama sa buhay.. heheheh.. thanks lots sa mga nagbabasa.. ^_^..

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