I Wait~ Wonpil Day6

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I had finally gotten home. It was about 10 pm. After work I had spent some time with JB. I had figured out that he was actually pretty cool.
He was nice to talk to. Also at some point, he asked me to spend the rest of the day with him, so I did. Jinyoung had also joined us. We went to a restaurant and then went to karaoke. I didn't sing of course. But they did. And it was really funny. I had a good time. Then I took the bus home.

I realized I was all alone now. But I didn't mind. Because I had a few bottles of soju, and I ordered chicken feet . I went into my room and changed. Well, not really my room. Since I was staying at me and Jun's old apartment, I had taken Jun's old room, because it was the biggest.
He had forgotten one of his panda stuffed animals here, and I had slept with it every night the past two weeks.
God I miss Jun...
I thought to myself.
Why didn't I call him?
No. I can't. I have to make him suffer a bit. So that he will know that what he did wasn't ok at all. He really hurt me this time, by not telling me what he knew.

I was in the living room, just about to start the movie I had planned on watching, when my phone rang.
I quickly picked it up from the table.
Oh god...
It was Wonpil.
I wouldn't answer him.
I couldn't...
But the phone kept ringing...
And for every beep, my heart jumped faster.
Maybe... I should just answer...
No. I can't...
But...
Suddenly I found myself picking up my phone.
Oh god. I'm actually doing this..
I actually answered.
What would I say? All I really wanted to say was that I loved him.
- hello.
I said simply. But I really wanted to say so much that else.
- I can't believe you actually answered me.. I'm so happy.
He said.
I couldn't believe it either. I had sworn to myself not to.
So I shouldn't talk to him.
- sorry wrong number...
I quickly said and hung up.
God job Siyeon...
I won't slip up again.

Damn it, now I had trouble breathing.

It was only 10:30 PM, and I knew for a fact that Inseong was visiting his mother, so I called him and invited him over.
He arrived only 10 minutes later.
- Siyeon omg! Didn't you move?!!!
He said as he gave me a hug.
- yeah, but Jun kept the apartment for some reason...
I said, as we broke the hug and sat down on the couch.
- Jun is too rich for his own good...
Inseong said and laughed.
Actually I was happy Jun kept this apartment.
Because this is where I need to be right now..
I wasn't really that mad at Jun anymore. I just didn't know what to say to him right now. I didn't know how to go back to the mansion. I was embarrassed.

I was embarrassed that Wonpil kept a secret from me.
And I was embarrassed that Jun helped keep that secret.
Didn't anyone care about me?

- Siyeon, what's wrong?!
Inseong suddenly asked me, looking concerned.
- what?
I asked.
- you are crying...
He said.
Damn it. I hadn't noticed.
- hey...sing me one of your songs!
I told him, trying to distract him from asking me why I was crying.
- of course..
He said, and started singing.
- not that one, it's boring.

• Wonpil's POV•

- sorry wrong number...
She said, and hung up.
My heart had stopped beating when she answered, and when she hung up, it just hurt.

- she's really being a bitch... isn't she?
I turned around to see Jae, and I got a bit spooked. He was wearing a face mask and looked like a ghost.
- don't talk about her like that.
I said.
- I'm sorry, I guess that wasn't a good thought.
Jae said.
- but you kind of deserve to be treated like that. You really screwed up.
Jae said.
I couldn't get mad. I agreed.
- what if we are over for good?
I asked him.
-If she doesn't find someone else to date, I guess you could get a new chance.
He answered.
It made me anxious.
What if she actually would find someone new?
It was the worst to think about it.
Siyeon, please don't stop loving me.
I thought to myself.
- hey, let's order some food and watch a movie.
Jae suggested.
Well, I was hungry.
- an English movie?
I asked him.
- yup.
Jae answered.
Damn it. I didn't like watching those, because I couldn't understand it.
Jae went out of the room, leaving me alone.

Dowoon entered the room, and seemed to be in a really good mood.
Actually he had been like that since we arrived in New York.
- I need to tell you something.
He said, and sat down on the bed beside me.
- I think I'm in love.
He said.
This really surprised me.
Because Dowoon never seemed interested in dating.
- who is it?
I asked him.
- it's Jun.