The Complications Of Falling

Broken Dreams

Mer's pov

I woke up so scared. I didn't know where I was. I opened my eyes. They were filled with a white room. It was a room I recognized. I woke up and Cris wasn't there. Neither was Alex. I started to panic. Then Cris rushes in.

"Mer,Mer it's okay it's just me. Your okay. Your safe" She told me . I start to calm down.

"Mer just breath" Cris instructed.

"Is the baby, okay"? I asked vulnerably

"Mer I'm so sorry but he's gone" She told me.

I cried. The tears soaked my already soaked cheeks.

"I knew I couldn't save him. I didn't get any prenatal care. He wouldn't left me leave. The only times I was allowed to leave was to go the bathroom or ... I didn't continue. I took a deep breathe before I spoke again.

"Or when I had sex with him" I cried.

"Oh my god Mer! I'm so sorry" She cried.

"And if I didn't this his friend would throw me back in to my cell. I sat there at the night. Crying and pleading to be let go. The day after he kidnapped me. It was my first day I had to have sex with him. It was torture, Cris. And when I got pregnant. He reacted badly. He would yell at me. He threw me down on the floor. I was petrified. I didn't know if I would ever see you, Alex or my kids again. Oh god my kids have forgotten me. Alex has probably is already married to Jo" I explained.

I saw Cris's face turn complex.

"Cris what's wrong"? I asked.

She took a deep breathe before telling me.

"Mer, Alex collapsed after he said goodbye to you" She confessed.

"Nooo"! I cried.

"He's okay now. He just hasn't woken up" She said.

"Oh my god" I said.

"Mer he's okay, okay" She states.

"Cris , you were right. I love Alex. I'm in love with him. When I was in heaven. I told to George, Lexie, Mark and Derek. I saw you guys. You were crying into Alex's arms. Alex told me his was in love with me. Then I made decision on coming back to you and Alex" I confessed.

"So your finally admitting you love Alex"? She asked.

"Yes don't tease me on this. I need to see Alex" I negotiated.

"Okay I won't. I will see what I can do" She said.

What was taking her so long. After three hours she finally comes back.

"Finally what took you so long"! I snapped impatiently.

"Mer, I have some news" She stated in a soft tone.

"Cris what is it"? Iasked.

She sucked in a huge breath of air. She cleared her throat harshly. She breathed out.

"Mer, Alex doesn't remember us" She stated trying not let my tears fall.

I stayed silent. I didn't move a muscle. I could only hear My heart beating. I had tears streaming down my cheeks silently.

"Mer please say something"! She yelped panicked.

I looked up and tried to speak but nothing came out. The tears were completely covering my cheeks. My heart broke. I'm in love with him. And he doesn't even remember me at all. It was heart wrenching. How could this have happened?

"How? Why?" I stammered.

"We still don't know what caused it. He doesn't remember years 2005-now. I don't know why Mer. I really don't" She stated with a fresh line of tears.