The Complications Of Falling

Emotions On Overdrive

Cris's Pov

I had to leave two weeks ago. I just scrubbed out of a ground breaking surgery. I was so proud of myself. I have working on this all year long. As I grabbed my stuff. I decided to grab a drink at the bar. As I was about to start my car. My phone started to ring. The caller Id said Alex. I grabbed my phone excitedly. Me and Alex have been talking more. We started to bond over our experience together. The hatred for the stalker was equal amount. Alex has been updated me about Mer's progress. She hasn't made any actually. It's more like she isn't herself anymore. Alex told me about her not talking to anybody. She started becoming more, dark and twisty.

I answered the phone eagerly to talk about my surgery.

"Hey, Cris" He said drained.

"Alex, is everything okay, you sound really shaken up"? I asked concernly.

"Alex, is everything okay"? I asked again frantically. I heard him breath in. He took a deep breath and exhaled harshly. I start to freak out. But I remained calm.

"Cristina have some devastating news to tell you" He told me trying not to sound all chocked up. That was making more anxious. There was a gnawing feeling eating away in my stomach.

I gulped. I took a big breath before replying.

"Alex what's happened"? I asked nervously.

"Mer was kidnapped, we think it's her stalker" He confessed as I chocks on his tears.

When I heard him say that. I didn't know how to respond. I stay quiet. I let out huge earth shattering cries.

"Cristina, are you okay"? He asked.

"Yeeess, I'm okaaay" I answered with a shaky voice.

"Cris do you want me to fly out there to pick you up"? He offers.

I clear my throat harshly. "No,no I can get back to Seattle" I state

"Okay" He said unsure.

"I will see you when I land, this time don't forget to pick me up" I state still shaken.

"I will, see you when you land" He replied before hanging up.

I sat there in tears. I slammed my hands on the steering wheel. I began slamming my head on steering wheel. When I hit the center. It honked. I started screaming at the top my lungs. Why is life so cruel? First there was the bomb. Then the fairy boat crash, where Mer drowned. After that was George getting hit by a bus. A year after was the shooting. There was also Callie's car accident. Oh and can't forget the plane crash, where we lost Mark and Lexie. Oh then there was, Meredith giving birth during the super storm. Webber getting electrocuted, Derek I'm accident and dying. Mer being attacked. The fire, and then Meredith car accident. And last for is Mer getting kidnapped. Like come on world. How can the world be so fucked up?

After crying In my car. I go up to my bosses office. I asked him for a few weeks off and I explained why.

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry, Dr yang" My boss said.

"Thank you very much, sir" I thanked him.

I left his office and went to my apartment I packed my stuff. I call a cab to the airport. It's the second time I had to go back to Seattle. But Alex needs me. He might not want to admit. But he does. And honestly I need him too. I get on my flight.

The next day

I finally landed. I take out my phone and call Alex.

"Hello" He answered.

"Alex I landed, can you pick me up"? I asked.

"Yes, I'm on my way" He replied.

Alex pulls up to the airport. I get in the car and sit in passenger seat. He puts the car in drive.

After 20 minutes of complete dead silence. I sat there in my seat crying silently. He pull the car over. I think he heard me cry. I notice the car has stopped. I look over at alex with my desperate pleading eyes.

He move closer to me and wraps his arms around me. I lean my head over his shoulders. I continued to cry. After 3 more minutes in dead silence. I finally lift my head from his shoulder. I look up. My eyes were bloodshot and red. I didn't even bother wiping them away. He took his two fingers and gently wiped the falling tears away. I smiled a little bit. I cleared my throat.

"Alex, thanks for letting me cry I really need it" I said with a small smile.

"Your welcome, I will always be here when you need me" He smiled softly back.

He puts the car back in drive and we head to Grey Sloan. We were greeted by Jackson, April, Baliey, Webber, Owen and Amelia in her wheel chair. I was pulled into a group hug. I started to feel happier. I actually hugged Amelia. I was surpised I hugged her. Since she's Owen's wife. And I'm his ex-wife. Amelia had tears in her eyes. Owen gave her paper bag to breath into. She eventually calmed down.

It was time go pick up the kids. Me and Alex hugged everyone goodbye. We were both pulled into the group hug again. This time the group hug was filled with tears. Jackson, Webber and Owen cried too.

We pulled apart. Alex waves goodbye. He picked up the kids. Zola runs up to Alex. Baliey keeps asking about Meredith. Maggie hands Alex ,Ellis. Ellis giggles when He tickle her tummy. I just laughed at him. It was the first time I have laughed in hours.

"If your going to laugh, why don't you play with her" He snapped playfully.

"Maybe Fine I will" I laughed.

I grab Ellis and put in my arms.

"Dada" Ellis giggles.

Alex's face turns white. I noticed the look of shock on his face. I walk up to Alex.

"Alex, it's okay, your the only father figure she knows. Your not replacing Derek. And I can tell you truly love these kids like their your own" I said in a sensitive tone.

"So I have to tell you something that is hard to admit. You were right. I'm in love with Meredith. I don't know how long, I have had these feelings about her" He said.

I smiled at him. I knew he would eventually would figure it himself. You have to be blind to not see how much they love each other.

"I knew it, evil spawn you finally passed my test. I'm retiring evil spawn nickname. You have no idea how happy this makes me" i expressed with a huge smile.

"I think I have some idea" He groaned regretting telling me .

"No you don't. Alex I have known for a while now that you have loved her. I just never brought it up. Alex, Derek's gone. He can't come back. I know that Mer loves you too. She just scared to finally let go of Derek. He made Meredith bright and shiny. Even how much I didn't like it. I was happy, she was happy. Now she's dark and her old self before she met him. But you bring the bright and shiny out of her too. I never seen her so happy, when she's with you. You make her smile more ways her I thought was possible. So don't give up, Alex. Fight for her. You tell her. Jackson told me what Mark said to him before he died. That's why he told April at her wedding. Don't you want to have her and her have your children. Even if it's not my fantasy. Go be happy. Your not happy with Jo. You act like you are. But your not. I can see you are just dying in this relationship with Jo. Personally I never liked her" I encourage him.

" what if we never find her or when we do find her, she dead"? He cried.

I was immediately panicked. I wasn't use to Alex breaking down like that. He was so helpless. I only have seen like this once. And that was when Izzie left him. Dear john style. But Mer was there to tell me what to do:

"Alex, don't think like that, stay strong" I replied.

He starts to break down more and more. I threw my arms around him and patted him softly. He starts to cry harder. That night He cried myself to sleep. I lay next to him and fell asleep also. It had been a very emotional day. I also cried myself to sleep. I missed Mer so much. Maybe I should just move back? I whisper to myself.