The Complications Of Falling

A Winter Nightmare

Jo's Pov

A huge boom of a voice shouted at us."Guys, you're in a hospital, Now act like it"! Baliey scolded as she pointed at us angrily. Mer and Cristina's faces turned into shock and they turned around. Then Baliey realizes it was us.

"Meredith, what are you doing here"? Baliey questioned, as she moved her hands. I notice Mer's face starts to turn pale.

"Are you okay, Grey"? Baliey asked again with concern shown on her complex face.

Before She could answer, She raced to the nearest trash can and puked her guts out again. Me and Cristina speed walked over to Mer. I notice Mer swaying back and forth. "Mer, Meredith. Mer, are you okay? Mer answer me"! I cried panicked. I saw that, Mer's knees buckled and She was sent flying back. She hit her head on the hard cold floor.

"Mer"! Cris yelled with tears running down her cheeks. Her eyes began to shut. I started to get really panicked.

"Crash cart"! I yelled trying to remain calm. I was handed the defibrillator. I placed it on her chest.

"Wait, She is pregnant"! Yang yelled as she wiped her eyes and checked the monitor. Bailey's eyes widen. Webber, April, Jackson and Arizona stood completely stunned. "Guys"! I yelled to get their attention. They pull themselves out of shock and began working. "How's the baby"? I asked concernly as I looked at Mer's closed eyes. "The baby is fine" Arizona stated as she checked Mer's pulse. It was still the same. My eyes began to well up with tears. Jackson sees me and tells me to go tell Alex. I wasn't expected to tell Alex. He was supposed to learn from Mer. But Mer can't really tell him.

As I look for Alex, I saw him siting in the lounge eating his lunch. I look at the time, it was 6:30. Alex notices me enter the room. "Hey, jo" Alex said as he continued to eat his pasta. I felt uneasy when I was around him. A part of me is still hurt about him being with her but the other part loves them together. "Hey, Alex" I said quietly as I paced the room. Alex's eyes left his pasta and he look up at me with his piercing eyes. "Is everything, okay Jo"? Alex questioned suspiciously as his eyes looked straight into my eyes. I cleared my throat and tried my best to lie my way out.

" uh, yes everything is fine" i stuttered as I looked down at my feet. While I was silently cursing myself in my head. Now Alex started to notice my uneasiness. I tried my best to hide it, he saw right through the barrier. "Jo what is going on"? He asked more curiously. I took a deep breath in. I exhaled and sat right down next to Alex on the couch. Alex sits up more. "Alex, I don't know how to tell you this, Mer is in the hospital. And she's having your baby. The baby is okay. We haven't been able to see if Mer will get through his. We were on our way here to have her tell you. When we got here, she started puke. And it caused her to feel weak. I don't know if she had anything to drink" I explained to him trying my best not to break down. Alex sat there stunned. He couldn't believe what he just heard. Alex clears his throat and begins to speak.

"Mer's pregnant"? Alex stutters as his breathing quickened. I saw Alex began to panic. I wrapped my arms around him so he wouldn't start to panic. "It's going to be okay. She's going to be okay" I reassure him as his breathing softened. "Okay, Okay. It's going to be okay" Alex kept repeating to himself over and over again.

Alex's Pov

They say shock is nomal. It's suppose to over take you a bit, but not control you. Sometimes the shock overthrows you and causes panic. If you don't let it. It won't take over and consume you in your guilt.

This morning , I woke up in a fetal position. I honestly have no idea how I got like that. Mer's recovery has gone by slower. I wish I could just take away the pain from her. She tells not to worry. By her telling me not worry, I end up worrying anyway. It's 4:30, when my alarm blares me to finally get ready for work. I walk over to my closet and throw on my scrubs. I head back over to my nightstand and grab my phone. I recheck the time. The time is now, 4:35. I should get going. I get into my car and put the key in the ignition. Just as I pull out of the drive away, my pager goes off. I groaned and checked the message. It said that Kevin Let is him again to see his girlfriend on the 4 floor. I get He wants to get some action. But his health is more important. If he blows his new kidney, he will have to be put on insulin again and back on the UNOS again for the 2 time. It took me so long to get him on that list.

When I get to his room. He is panting. His cheeks are red. He's breathing faster than last night. I rush over to him. "Kevin, You need to calm down" I ordered him. Kevin starts to calm down. I looked over to his mother, who looked super anxious. I was worried for her. She's a great mother. She had been to every one of his surgeries. She works two jobs to pay for his medical expenses.

"Dr Karev, is my son going to be okay"? Angela asked worriedly. "M.S marin, Kevin needs to slow down. Otherwise he will have to be put on insulin and have to get a new kidney" I explained as I read his chart. Her eyes seemed so hopeful. I wish I could be hopeful. My life has been so complex, that it is hard to be hopeful. I turned towards her and smiled. "Okay, he needs to slow down. I will make sure he is okay" Angela stated as she sat next to Kevin. " I will be back to check on Kevin in an hour, bye" I stated as I closed the door behind me.

I decided to change it another set of scrubs. Mine were covered in blood from last surgery. My stomach rumbled loudly. I walked over to the fridge and pull out my homemade pasta. As I was eating I saw jo walk in. "Hey, jo" I said as I continued to eat my pasta. "Hey, Alex" Jo said quietly as She paced the room. My eyes left my pasta and I looked up at her with my eyes. I noticed how tense and nervous she was being. I started to feel a little worried. "Is everything, okay Jo"? I questioned suspiciously as my eyes looked straight into her eyes. She cleared her throat and tried her best to lie her way out. I have known Jo for so long, that when she tried to lie. I automatically know she's lying.

" uh, yes everything is fine" she stuttered as She looked down at her feet. I started to notice her uneasiness.

"Jo what is going on"? I asked more curiously.

She took a deep breath in. She exhaled and sat right down next to me on the couch. I started to sit up more.

"Alex, I don't know how to tell you this, Mer is in the hospital. And she's having your baby. The baby is okay. We haven't been able to see if Mer will get through his. We were on our way here to have her tell you. When we got here, she started puke. And it caused her to feel weak. I don't know if she had anything to drink" She explained to me trying her best not to break down.

I sat there stunned. I couldn't believe what I just heard. Mer's pregnant. She's pregnant with my baby. I could feel myself start to panic. I cleared my throat and began to speak.

"Mer's pregnant"? I stuttered as my breathing quickened. Jo saw me start to panic. She wrapped her arms around me so I wouldn't start to panic. "It's going to be okay. She's going to be okay" She reassured me as my breathing softened. "Okay, Okay. It's going to be okay" I kept repeating to myself over and over again. Mer's going to make it. I won't cry, she's going be okay. And I'm going to be a father. I won't a father like my dad. I will be a way better father. I'm going to spin her or him around until they get dizzy.

It seemed like hours before Mer was back in her room. As I walked up to her bed, I saw how beautiful she was. Her eyes were shut, but I could still picture what the color of her eyes are. Her eyes are the color green, which sparkled in the moonlight. Her smile never dims, when it starts to rain. Seattle is known for rain, dark and gloomy. She never lets the rain bother her. The only time I have seen her look at the gloomy sky and feel down. That was when her mother had one lucid day and called her ordinary.

Arizona walked through the door. Her face was calm but she kept staring at me with worry. "Alex, Are you Okay" Zona asked in a worried tone as she looked at Mer's face. I honestly didn't know how I felt. A part of me was stuck in time and the other was just thinking about me being a father.

" I'm worried that I won't be a good father. I didn't think I can be the father that this baby deserves" I stated with a sad smile. Zona noticed I was about to break down and hugged me gently.

"Alex don't think our yourself like that. Of course your going to be a great father. You're so good with kids. You treat Mer's and Derek's kids like your own. Don't worry about screwing them up. You're way much better of a father than your father was to you" Zona expressed as she looked at me. I felt my smile widen and small happy tears went down my face. "Zona, thanks for thinking about me much better than I think of myself" I smiled back. "Your welcome, Alex" Zona said as she looked up at me.