Friends? A Magcon Fanfiction

Saying Goodbye

Sara's POV

*THE NEXT DAY*

I've been dating Aaron now for a few months, I haven't talked to Nash since well, the last time I saw him. Aaron makes me feel so special and loved, I've never in my entire life felt so important to someone until now. I haven't talked to either Courtney or Danielle for a while now, I miss them. Everyday. I wish I could go to them for advice or just to hear what they have to say. I miss what we used to be. I feel horrible for what I've done to them, and I will never expect them to fully forgive me, because I know if I were them, I wouldn't. I was just hurt, hurt that Nash didn't really care all along, that he just used me for revenge. The memory of when everything first happened, when Cameron and I went to buy movies, and to find Danielle laying there tied up replayed all over in my mind. I should've known then he didn't care, but I just kept going back to him. I'm lucky enough that Aaron let me back into his life. Ever since then, my point of view of life changed. I've looked at things differently then I used to. They say, Love changes you, and it does. When you have the kind of love that makes you happy, and that your world revolves around someone, you change for the best. I decided to scroll through Danielle and Courtney's instagrams to see what they were up to. They finally unblocked me after a while, I guess that's a step up. Then I saw that Courtney is moving. I need to go see her.

"Courtney's moving, I'm going to go see if she will actually talk to me," I said as I got up out of bed. I just dropped out of school, it was to much for me to handle all at once. 

"Alright! Be careful!" he yelled back at me before I shut the front door. I walked to my car. It was still snowing outside from yesterday. They say that there is no snow flake that is exactly identical, that reminds me of how people are. People aren't identical, they could just look alike but never be the same. I shook my head, to get the thought of snow flakes out of my mind. I focused on driving to Courtney's house and thinking what I would say to her, is this even a good idea? I arrived, it was to late to turn back now. I glanced around at her house, there was a for sale sign on the front yard covered in snow. I ran up the steps and knocked on the door. I waited patiently outside, the cold winter air hit me hard. It went straight through my heavy jacket and to my skin. 

"Um, hello." she said with a confused tone to her voice. The furniture in her house was almost all gone, this is real. She really is moving, I needed to see it for myself, to let it all process in my brain. 

"Hey, I just wanted to say that I'm sorry about everything that's happened. I don't expect you to forgive me, but I just wanted to try," I said softly. The words easily fell out of my mouth.

"That was very nice of you to do," she said. I could tell she wasn't going to forgive me easily, and I never expected it, I just hope one day she will.

"I miss you, everyday," I admitted. My voice was quiet, and I couldn't look at her, because I was scared of what she'd say. 

"I miss all of the memories we've had together too, the three of us, but in this time in our lives, we're going separate ways. It's bound to happen, but I never expected it to be so soon. Even if we do become friends again, I don't think it will ever be the same," she said softly. She seemed more sensitive then usual.

"I know," I whispered as I stared down at my feet. I didn't want her to see my reactions to this, I don't want her to see me weak. 

"You never even came to apologize sooner. You just came because you knew I was moving and you wanted to end it on good terms? Did you even know that Danielle is pregnant? So much has happened, and its not like we pushed you away from us, you did it to yourself. So in a way, I don't feel bad for you," she said simply. The words sounded rehearsed, like she's waited to tell me this for a long time.