jachary, "I'm not gay"

chapter 12 <3

still Zach's P.O.V buddy
I walked into the house so angry at everything in the world.

I felt like nothing could make me okay at this point.

"woah, what happened?" Daniel stopped me while seeming to be angry at himself too and wanting to know what was going on.

"nothing" I replied and shoved passed him.

"you know" he paused for a split second thinking about whether he should say what he was about to say. "you and jack are so much alike, y'all push everyone out of yalls lives" He then paused again so that it made sense when he continued. "especially the ones that love you!" He yelled but after that everything broke into silence as he shook his head and walked up the stairs.

and I just stood there.

Daniel was not one to use the word love, he wasn't the kind of guy to show his emotions at all, he has always been more serious and observant.

And even when he did say the word "love", which wasn't very often, he'd use it in the sense of friends, brothers, or family.

But this way.. it was different.

could he have mean he's in love with jack? because I have honestly been the biggest dick to Daniel ever since jack has started being a dick to me-

holy shit waittt...

I've been treating Daniel the same exact way as jack has been treating me and Daniel has been treating me the way I've always treated jack.

like, he always listens. he lets me say whatever I want whether it offends him or not. he always shows he cares. he is always sticking up for me. and he is always on my side no matter the argument.

god dammit.

why the fuck am I such a stupid hypocrite?!

I get so mad at jack for doing the SAME shit I do to Daniel.

And Daniel definitely doesn't deserve this, because I know I do not deserve what I get from jack.

So, In this moment of realization, I decided to walk up the stairs and apologize to Daniel.

because, I now understand that Daniel has always been there for me and he is the true one who deserves me.

Not jack.

I rolled my eyes at the thought of jack and continued up the stairs because I had stopped due to my thinking.

I knocked on Daniels door, which was also jack's.

"What, Zach?!"

The way Daniel took things was way different how I do with jack, daniel has more of an anger type of coping mechanism, so that's why he's always yelling when something goes wrong.

"I just wanted to say sorry" I softened my voice as I said this. "can you open the door?" I began to ready myself because I knew that I most likely would have to plead him to open the door. because if I were him, I wouldn't even let me in.

but then he unlocked the door, I suddenly remembered how diverse me and Daniels thinking was.

I could possibly have more chances than jack had with me.

but I was not going to even test that or take advantage of it at all.

we had been standing there just staring at eachother for awhile not realizing we were, because we were just both into our thinking.

"look" Daniel finally spoke up. "I'm sorry that I get so mad, I know that you're going through a lot and I shouldn't be the one having out bursts but I am honestly getting tired of being quiet all the time."

"no, you shouldn't be sorry, I know I've been treating you like shit like how jack treats me" I rolled my eyes and continued "and you don't deserve that, you're too good of a friend" I smiled at him, hoping that was a good enough apology.

Daniels P.O.V
OUCH AS FUCK.

friend zoned by a younger guy.

I'm so pathetic.

I smiled back at him but I couldn't contain the blush I was hiding so I began to turn into a fucking tomato and he laughed.

he had the cutest laugh.

I mean just the way his voice deepens a little and the 3 little ha's he gives out and the way he grinds his teeth once he's done with his laugh.

it's like everything he does is in slow motion so I notice every move he makes.

but not in a creepy way. Haha.

I grabbed his hand and said "sorry"

I only said sorry because I kissed him right after my short apology (ok so like he kissed him after he said sorry, just saying).

it felt great once he kissed back and couldn't stop smiling during the kiss.

or was that me?

I don't know and I don't-

my thoughts were cut off by a loud knocking noise.

And that's when I realized, none of this happened, none of it.

Zach was barely now coming up the stairs, asking if he could come in.

I didn't answer.

Instead I laid in my bed beginning to sob, I honestly can't take not speaking my mind anymore.

After more and more of Zach's knocks, I wiped my tears and opened the door.

"WHAT, ZACH?!" I yelled louder than what I did in my dream.

he saw my puffy red eyes and worried for me, and I knew that was why he was giving me a weird look that gave me a weird feeling because I hated showing my emotions.

"Why are you looking at me like that?!" I obviously knew the answer but I wanted to seem like if I was tough.

"Why were you crying?" his voice was soft, kind of as soft as it was in my dream.

"I wasn't-"

"Daniel, your eyes are clearly so puffy to the point where you probably can't even see straight"

(LMAO GAY JOKES💀 get it? Bc he's not straight so he obviously can't see straight.... lmao I'm funny *slaps knee* that's a knee slapper)

"So?" I paused so that I could close my door just a little. "Stop acting like you care." I then tried to close my door all the way.

but he stopped it with his foot and widened my door.

"you know what Daniel" he paused.

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A\N; LMAO HI ITS ME, IS THIS BORING?! IF NOT THEN PRESS THAT STAR BUTTON!!

And btw Daniels dream starts after Zachs realization of him probably liking Daniel and him walking up the stairs (soo like everything that Zach thought up to the point where he knocks on the door(in the dream) is real (in the fanfic)),,,, SO THAT GAY CONFLICT BE COMING SOON FELLAS!
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Sorry if you didn't understand my explaining, if you've been here since the beginning of this fanfic then you would've saw that my old description was literally "I'm bad at describing things"💀