jachary, "I'm not gay"

chapter 15 <3

Jonah's P.O.V
Julie had fallen asleep in my arms covered in makeup smears because she was crying over everything that had happened today.

I laid her on my bed and decided to wipe off her make up and make her feel comfortable.

I laid next to her for awhile until I heard jack basically screaming.

I didn't want to get up. But I had to. A part of me wanted to know what was wrong, with my best friend.

as I made my way to his bathroom I paced back and forth right in front of the door because I was contemplating on wether I should go in or not. After about the 8th scream or cry or whatever he was doing, I had walked in.

I stood there in shock for about two seconds, because jack avery was not the weak type and I had just witnessed him cutting. not that that's weak.. it's just jack's too playful to be doing this, I just couldn't picture him being that sad.

he was beginning to form another cut on his arm and

I snapped back into reality and faced what was happening, I quickly made my way to him with a towel I picked up that was hanging on a towel hanger and forced it on his arm.

I didn't say anything. the room was quiet. and he just kept staring at me.

he was really red, this poor guy.

I didn't want to, but I had pressed harder on his arm because the blood would not stop.

I saw him squint from the corner of my eye.

I didn't want to look at him too much because the kid was naked.

I got up and brought another towel out to cover his body. And went back to pressing the other towel on his arm.

he began to cry again.

"it's going to be okay" I didn't look at him when I said this. I just continued to do what I've been doing.

he threw his head back. "I-it's never g-going to get better" he paused because he needed to calm himself. "Everybody says that" he shook his head. "But I haven't been "better" since I was 14" I had never knew jack was living with depression.

I guess the saying "The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest." Is true..

because everyone thought jack was one of the happiest in the group.

he gave me a sad look and then stated. "Sorry, I forgot you didn't care" I didn't know I was thinking for that long.

"no, I do care jack, I just didn't realize that you had depression."

he looked down. "Well now you do"

Jack's P.O.V
It grew quiet again and I kind of liked the silence the room was filled with.

Until Jonah spoke up.

"why'd you do it?" He asked slow and calmly while looking at my arm and patting it.

"I-I DONT know" I sorta yelled. I didn't mean to. But everything I do is just kind of like a reflex.

"it's okay, I'm not going to force you to tell me" he gave me a small smile.

as Jonah was patting my arm to see if there were left over blood marks, Julie had walked in.

I rolled my eyes but not to where Julie or Jonah could see.

"What's going on?" She looked happy, but how could she be happy when she literally was breaking down not to long ago?

Then I remembered she's pregnant and all them hormones get to her.

"nothing" I pushed Jonah off of me and acted as if I was happy too.

"Why are you naked" Julie continued to question me.

"WELL IF YOU ALL LEAVE I WOULDNT BE NAKED ANYMORE" I shot back trying to hide the cuts on my arm, because nobody else had to know what I did.

they both left awkwardly not even trying to snap back at me.

I sighed in relief as I saw the door close behind them because thoughts and feelings are things I just don't want to have right now.

I threw my head back and just relaxed in the bath not caring that the water was red and that my arm was still bleeding.

my mind went blank for a good while until Zach popped into my mind.

not in a bad way though, I was thinking of all the good times we had. just as best friends.

I smiled as I was replaying the good times we had leading up to the past couple of days.

then I started to think about how this all went south.

"why?" I asked myself. "Why why why why" I repeated while being in denial that I in fact had so much feelings for Zachary Dean Herron.

i got out of the tub quickly and changed into my clothes so that my thoughts would be interrupted by talking boys.

I didn't want to think.

Zach's P.O.V
Corbyn, Christina, daniel, and I had all decided to play a board game because why the heck not.

And we were actually having so much fun..

until jack walked in.

as he made his way into the living room everyone grew quiet like if he shot someone.

he looked nervous and bit his lip (but like not the sexual way yk?).

"What do you want jack?" Corbyn asked while obviously being annoyed. I told them about what happened so now they hate jack too...

"I just wanted to know.. if I could play with y'all" he looked down.

"Of course.. not" Corbyn has never been this petty, and it was kind of funny.

and as jack was about to talk Jonah walked in. "Now that's a bit childish Corbyn.. just let the kid play" he patted jack's back.

"Now we have 2 snakes in the room woah. if only Julie were here, it would be 3"

Jonah took a deep breath in and slowly exhaled. "Corbyn shut the fuck up already, you are acting like you are 12, you know what? I think I liked you better when you were just annoying"

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A/N; This chapter was ass because I made it at random times during the week, I'm sorry!
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btw can y'all comment some song suggestions?! I NEED TO LISTEN TO SOME NEW MUSIC BECAUSE I KEEP LISTENING TO THE SAME SHIT EVERYDAY!😤