FORBIDDEN - (BechloeStory)

CHAPTER #21

#CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

"We accept the love we think we deserve." 

It's Sunday and as usual, Beale Family will go to their church.

Beca wasn't with them because she's finding a job with Stacie. The brunette wasn't comfortable with sleeping in a motel that's why she really needs to find an immediate job, even just a waitress on any fast food chain. She wasn't trying with Benji's yet but it'll be her last choice for now, she doesn't want to use Benji for the sake of herself but if it's her last choice maybe Benji would understand her situation.

"So how's your school? Is your first week fine?" Stacie asked while trying to figure out what's in the paper information of Beca.

"Well, the gossips are real and it already reached the faculty rooms." Beca answered, making Stacie turned to her. They're walking on the sidewalk, trying to find a hiring sign. "Do I need to be glad that I'm getting known by everyone because of this?"

"That's really a bad idea to be famous." Stacie said. "Since I studied there, homosexuality is one of the biggest problem apart from bullying. Most of the cases why they are letting their child to study on our school is because of ability of it to make homosexuals, straight. I didn't know anything about it but, suicide cases inside there are most gays. Last year, there were two boys who hang themselves inside the bathroom with a cardboard on their chest saying, because of homophobics. I must don't tell you this but I need you to be aware."

"I won't let Chloe do that for me." Beca said. Stacie knew it. Even Beca wants to die, she didn't harm herself. She does want anyone to do it to her because she knew she's also afraid to die.

But how much pain she could take to hold on?

"Have you ever been in love? You know, apart from Chloe." Stacie asked randomly. Beca reluctantly nodded.

"Y-Yeah," Beca answered. "But she left me with another guy coz she couldn't take those insults we are receiving from others but she loves me. I know." Beca smiled, eyes welling. "I just accepted the fact that her love won't keep me alive."

"Uhm. Did Chloe know anything about that?"

"Actually, no. I don't want her to know anything about that. I know she won't do that to me though."

"How sure are you?" Stacie asked absentmindedly. Beca frowned at her.

"I'm sure... why are you asking that—you know this past few days, a lot of people saying Chloe's cheating on me and it's getting into my nerves."