Wanting You - Mandy Gonzalez X Chris Jackson - COMPLETED

8 - Kissing?

We had our lunch break and then went and stood on the mock fire escape they had set up so we had the barrier for us to lean against. We spent the rest of that day going through the song line by line and putting our movements into it. I loved Andy and Tommy's method of teach the choreo and direction. They gave us instructions, we did it while copying them, this was kind of funny to watch, then we did it ourselves without music, then with music, and then went from the beginning of the song adding that part in.

At ten to five we sang through the full song and did all we had learnt that afternoon. I put my hand around Chris's neck at the end of the song, I stood on my tiptoes as instructed and leant in towards Chris. He had a slight look of fear in his eyes. Instead of kissing him on the lips as we were told, I just kissed him on the cheek. I wasn't going to make him uncomfortable. He kissed my cheek back and we smiled at each other. I wrapped by arms around his neck and leaned on his chest as his arms went around my back. He held me close once again until he broke apart and walked off the small platform, towards the others.

"That was good, but the end, that's not what Benny and Nina would do, you need to remember that they have just expressed all their feeling for each other. It's this moment when they officially become a couple after spending the night together at Benny's. Chris you used to be amazing at this scene. What's happened?" I looked at Chris next to me the whole time. I could see the look of shame on his face that then changed to one of shock and anger.

I grabbed Chris hand in both of mine and squeezed it tight. "Tommy, what's happened is that Chris used to do this with his girlfriend, then his wife, who passed away six months ago. This is hard on him. I'm trying my hardest to help Chris with the struggle of losing a loved one. We still have months before we are scheduled to open on Broadway. We have time for us to figure it out. We are actors and we can do it. I was going to kiss him properly but I saw a look of worry and fear on his face and I didn't want to make him uncomfortable, so I kissed his cheek instead. If we could have some time to figure out what we want, that would be amazing. Thank you." I looked up at Chris as he had tears falling from his eyes. I reached up and wiped away the tears with my thumbs. "It's okay Chris. I understand. I've got you." I wrapped my arms around him and rubbed his back.

"Thank you Mandy." He hugged me back as we smiled at each other. After a few minutes we pull apart and start to pack our things up to go collect Doug from pre-school.

We go to leave when Lin pulled Chris to one side to talk. I smile at him as they walk off. The one problem with Lin is that he can't be quiet, I'd learnt that over the last few weeks. I sat on on the little table and watched as I overheard their conversation.

"Chris, what's going on between you and Mandy, are you or aren't you a thing?" I looked down at the table twiddling my thumbs. I glanced up at him again and saw he looked slightly nervous.

"Um, no, we currently aren't a thing, yeah no." The word currently began pounding in my head. Did he have romantic feelings for me?

"Do you like her though Chris? Do you think you will become a couple? You two are super cute together and you are always hugging and holding her close to your body. And you give her kisses on the forehead. It's all very romantic to me."

"Yeah, I really like her Lin. Like a lot. That's why I started doing more romantic stuff but I told her it was just friendly and she went with it, I do it because I like her. I just don't think I want her to know yet. She's so sweet and kind. She loves Doug so much and he loves her as well. She's an incredible mother figure to him and she's helped me so much since Veronica passed away. I just don't know if it's too soon. What if she's thinks I'm crazy for falling for someone so soon after my wife died?" I pursed my lips and closed my eyes in excitement. He likes me. He actually likes me in a romantic way. I hoped this would happen. I pull out my phone and pretend to be on Twitter so it looks like I'm paying no attention to them.

"Hey Chris, if you like her then go for it. Maybe do Sunrise tomorrow, kiss her then and see how you feel. If you feel the spark then go for it. 6 months is quite a fast time to move on from something so bad, but it's up to you."

"I may see how things go in rehearsals, and if I start to fall in love with her even more, then I'll ask her out on a real date and not a not date."

"What's a not date?" I giggled slightly at Lin's question, I was also excited to hear Chris's explanation.

"Basically it's when I take her out on a date, such as one time I took her out for dinner. We've done park picnics before. We've done all sorts. It's a date but we aren't a couple." He did well at explaining.

"That's adorable. Anyway head back to your girl, go home, have a good night and when you do ask her out, let me know." Both Chris and Lin stood up and gave each other their bro hug that they always did. "Oh and if you don't want to kiss her during these rehearsals in that's fine. I don't know why Tommy got so annoyed at you earlier, but that's another reason why Mandy is so sweet, she proper had your back there. Just be ready for when we get the whole company in." I continued to look at my phone so they didn't know us heard everything. I heard them say goodbye to each other, then felt Chris behind me and put his arms over my shoulders, as I scrolled through Twitter.

He kisses the top of my head, at which point I acknowledged him. I look up at him as I put my phone down and hold his hands in mine. "Hey Chris? What did you and Lin talk about?" I wanted to see if he would lie to me. I had a feeling he would as he wouldn't want to tell me his feelings now.

"Oh Lin basically just apologised for Tommy getting angry at us for not kissing. He said he's going to talk to him and say we don't have to kiss in any of these ones but once we start full act run throughs then we need to be ready."

"Okay that's nice to know." I was happy that he hold the truth as far as he could without mentioning the whole fact that he liked me. I still couldn't believe that Chris actually liked me back. I've had feelings for him for almost a year now and I've had to hide that all in for months. I was excited for when he would ask me out. All I knew is that I was wanting him, and he actually was wanting me as well.