Wanting You - Mandy Gonzalez X Chris Jackson - COMPLETED

46 - Do you trust me?

I wake up and Chris is still asleep. I turn on his phone and see he hasn't checked it at all. I face him and rest my hand on his bare chest. "Please baby, please don't believe anything in that article. It's all lies and I would never lie to you my love. I would never just use you. I love you more than anything and Adam is just jealous that I was able to find true love and happiness without him. Just, don't read it. I love you Christopher Jackson. I really do." I kiss his chest then climb out of bed, I get Doug up and get him ready for the day. He gets dressed and does his own teeth for the first time. I make him breakfast of fruit loops and I write Chris a note and place it on the kitchen bench.

'Hey babe. Just writing this to let you I've gone to take Doug to preschool and then I'll go grocery shopping to get some food for the week. I won't be too long, if you need me call. I love you. M xoxo'

We walk towards the door and grab his coat. "Can't I say goodbye to daddy?" He asks, looking up at me.

"Daddy's still asleep bud. We will both pick you up though. So you'll see him soon okay."

"Okay." He puts on his coat and I help him start the zipper. He then finishes it off himself. "I'm getting better at my zip." He says excitedly.

"I know Doug. I'm so proud of you." I grab my bag and we head out the door, hand in hand. I drop him off at the preschool that's around the corner from us, then walk a few blocks to the store. I grab the basics, bread, pasta, ham, cheese, some fruit and vegetables, a few snacks for Doug after school, as well as some random bits and bobs. I head back home and find the note on the counter. I smile at seeing an addition to the note.

'I love you too gorgeous, C xoxo'

I put away the groceries and walk to our room, I try to open the door, but I found it locked. My heart plummets, he must have read the article. Why else would he lock himself in there? "Babe, are you in there?" No response.  "Chris my love, can you unlock the door please. I want to talk."

"What do you want to talk about, why should I even trust you anymore Mandy?" He had a tone of both anger and sadness, a tone that broke my heart.

He had definitely read it. "Chris. Please. Do you know who even wrote that article?" I whimpered leaning on the door.

"I don't need to know Mandy. Just go away." He shouted.

"Chris. Please. Please Chris." I sobbed. "Just let me talk to you. I love you Chris. I love you so much. Just please."

"Well maybe I don't love you anymore. I thought I found true love again after losing Veronica. But turns out you're just playing a fucking game and you're only here for Douglas." He was now crying.

I burst into tears, thank god I'd taken Doug to preschool. I went into the little studio with Chris's keyboard, guitar and desk in and I found a paperclip. I walked back to our door and after five minutes of struggling, I picked the lock. I walked in, gently closing the door behind me and walked over to the bed, my face completely tear stained. I knelt down onto my knees facing my boyfriend. "Chris, none of that is true. Not a single word, yes Adam knew me personally, but I haven't spoken to him since he dumped me. Adam Davis is my ex. The ex who dumped me, who you then helped me up from. He's jealous that I've found happiness again, that's all. He's an asshole as you said yourself that day. I've had feeling for you for a year and a half now. I've loved you for over six months. I didn't even realise he was there, and he happened to be who you talked to while I was sorting Doug out. I'm sorry he was there, I'm sorry he said all that shit about us. But I promise you that I love you. That I will always be there for you. That I won't leave you and Douglas. I found a really happiness when you came into my life Chris. And I can't lose that again, not now. Who do you trust more, me a girl you've been in love with for six months, and known well for a year. Or your girlfriends ex who you've never met until that interview and who you didn't know was her ex? Who do you trust Chris? Me or Adam?" I put my forehead on the mattress as I continued to sob into it.