To Love Someone (SharDon)

KABANATA 14

Maybe

Donny didn't seem to like her joke. Hindi ito umimik at basta nalang inirapan sya na nagpatawa sa kanya. He looks cute rolling his eyes! Mukha itong lalaking nagtatampo at nagpapakabitchy.

"You're not funny."
Komento nito.

"Thank you."
She laughed.

Hindi nya din alam kung paano nya nagawang magjoke dito. Kaya hindi nya din alam kung ayos ba iyon o hindi.

She admits that she's getting more comfortable with Donato Antonio Pangilinan as time goes by. Magaan ang pakiramdam nya sa lalaki. Hindi nya din alam na may ikoclose pa syang lalaki sa buhay nya bukod sa papa nya at kay Arturo.

She never did like hanging out with boys mostly, even with girls. Hindi nya alam pero mas gusto nya ka-hang out ang sarili nya lang. Mas komportable sya sa ganoong set up. But lately, she's getting more comfortable with it.

"Oh my God! Are freakin' serious, Sharlene!?"
Hindi makapaniwalang tanong sa kanya ni Mariko.

She told her friend about Donny saying that he likes her; omitting the part of Donny kissing her. Ayaw nya ng ibahagi iyon dahil sya mismo ang nahihiya.

Tumango sya sa kaibigan at  natakpan nya ang kanyang dalawang tenga sa tili nito.

"What did you say? Did he kiss you?"
Halos masamid sya sa kanyang laway when Mariko said that four letter word.

Paano nito nalaman iyon?

Ngunit nailing sya ng maisip na kaya nga sya tinatanong kung nahalikan sya ni Donny ay dahil wala pa itong alam. Tumikhim sya at inayos ang sarili bago nagsalita.

"Wala. And wait, why do you keep on asking about a kiss? What's with it? When a guy kissed a girl, what about it?"
Kuryoso nyang tanong.

Halos makita nyang bumagsak ang mga balikat ng kaibigan. Mariko looked at her with pure disbelief.

"Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari sa buong buhay mo, Sharlene. Hindi ko alam kung inosente ka ba masyado o tanga lang o ewan ko."
Inirapan nya ang madrama nitong pahayag.

Kung hindi ito willing magbigay ng sagot sa katanungan nya ay mas mabuti pang wag nalang itong magtanong.

"When a guy kissed someone, that means they like you. They are in to you. When a guy tells you they like you, and do something that friends don't usually do, then he likes you for real. Sa kaso nyo ni Donny, alam kung gusto ka talaga nya, he's pursuing you really well, bagay na hindi nya ginagawa sa mga babae nya dati."
Maya maya ay sabi pa nito.

She was silenced by that. Ayaw nya ng magsinungaling pa sa sarili. The main reason why she asked Mariko about that thing is because she's really confused. Kissing is more likely to be done everywhere and anytime. That's what she observed. Sa pelikula maging sa mga teleserye, nobela ay iyon ang nakikita nya, maging sa totoong buhay. Malinaw sa kanya na ang paghalik ng isang lalaki sa isang babae ay hindi nangangahulugan na gusto ka nila.

Sometimes you are just a kissing machine. Someone they can kiss whenever they feel like kissing someone and what do they call it? Fling?

Maraming mga tao ang nag iinvest ng emosyon para sa bagay na akala nila ay sigurado sila but they always end up disappointing theirselves sa pag aakalang ang kanilang nararamdaman ay gaya din ng nararamdaman ng taong iyon.

Eventually, after people get what
they really want from you after fooling you and telling you they really love you, they will leave you with nothing; but a scattered heart that takes time to fix.