To Love Someone (SharDon)

KABANATA 23

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Maingat ang hakbang nya pabalik sa kwarto ng kapatid ni Donny. Naroon parin ang yaya nito. Gusto na nyang bumaba at umalis ng mag-isa sa lugar na iyon ngunit hindi nya magawa. It would be very weird to go downstairs knowing that she will be able to see the disgusting thing she saw earlier.

"I'll just check on Solana."
She politely said to Solana's yaya. The woman nodded and smiled to her.

Dahan dahan syang lumapit sa kama ni Solana at umupo sa gilid at sinulyapan ang payapa nitong pagtulog. She raked Solana's hair away from the little girl's pretty face and then leaned to kiss her forehead. She smiled bitterly.

Donny's family is one hell of a beautiful one. Everyone is nice to her and made her feel like she's already a part of it not knowing that she was just probably brought up here by Donny just to really made her believe all of this lies. Lingid sa kaalaman ng mga magulang at kapatid nito, isa lamang syang challenge at pampalipas oras ng isang Donato Antonio Pangilinan.

Wala rin naman sigurong balak si Donny na talagang dalhin sya pamilya nito at nagkataon lang na bumisita si Hannah at nakita sya kaya wala ng iba pang nagawa si Donny kundi ang isama sya.

She starred at the lovely girl in front of her thinking all of the goodbye words on her mind and reminding herself how she's glad to met them and how she's thankful for the hospitality and concerns towards her. Inalala nya na ang maikling oras dahil sa oras na tumapak sya palabas ng mansyong iyon ay hinding hindi na sya babalik pa doon.

"Take care always, Baby Solana. Ate Shar loves you."
For the last time she kissed the kid's temple and then she felt her eyes watered.

"Baby..."
Her breathing stopped for a moment when she heard Donny's call on the door. Mabilis nyang pinalis ang mumunting butil ng mga luha sa kanyang mga mata at kinalma ang sarili.

Narinig nya ang mga yabag nito palapit sa lugar nya. Humigpit ang hawak nya sa comforter na nasa kama ni Solana.

"You're here. How's Solana?"
He asked in low voice.

She tried to smile.

"She's sleeping."
She answered casually. Hindi nya ito nilingon.

"They loved you."
She could imagine the smile on Donny's face when he told her that. It's probably true. Ang hindi lang naman talaga sya sigurado ay kung mahal ba talaga siya nito.

Pumikit sya ng mariin ng maramdaman nya na sa kanyang gilid si Donny. Kinabig nito ang kanyang ulo upang ihilig sa tiyan nito na lagi nitong ginagawa. Hindi nya alam kung bakit sa oras na iyon ay naramdaman nya parin ang ginhawa gayong alam nyang hindi na dapat.

She smelled her manly scent that is actually one of the reasons why she loved him doing that; hugging her, kissing her on the temple and made her feel the love she shouldn't believe in. Bukod sa mainit at malambing nitong mga yakap ay isa na iyon sa gusto nya.

She manage to stop her tears from falling down her face when Donny crouched to kiss her hair and smelled her scent. Hinagilap nito ang kanyang kamay na kanina lang ay mahigpit ang kapit sa tela ng comforter ni Solana ngunit ngayon ay kusang lumawag at nagpaubaya. She felt her world crumbled when Donny massage her knuckles and eventually planted a kiss on her frail hands.

"I wanna go home."
She whispered lowly. Iyon nalang ang tanging alas nya para maiiwas ang sarili sa mga sari-saring emosyon na nararamdaman nya sa mga oras na iyon. She wanted to cry because of the pain she's feeling but she couldn't because she doesn't want to.

She doesn't want to be vulnerable for all of this. It will only gave Donny the confidence to hurt her even more.

Dapat wala syang pinapakitang sakit para malaman man lang nito na hindi sya apektado sa narinig nya. Alam nyang wala itong alam ngunit oras na mangyari iyon ay sisiguruhin nyang hindi sya magmumukhang kaawa-awa.