My Precious [Kaneki x Reader]

Chapter 1 - Memories

(Y/N) POV:

"See ya tomorrow (Y/N)!" Hide called out while walking away, cheerful as ever. 

"Right, see you Hide!" I cheered and gave him a smile, a fake smile that is. I haven't shown anyone a real smile since I lost my mother. She was murdered... By a ghoul. It happened for about two years ago, I was only fifteen then. As for my so-called father? He left me behind when she died and I have mostly been taking care of myself ever since. It actually went pretty smoothly after some time, my mom's death still haunted me sometimes, but 'he' helped me. 'He' kept me company and hung out with me. Yeah... Good times. Of course 'he' didn't know about my parents, I guess 'he' just accepted that when I avoided the question the first time 'he'' asked, it just wasn't something that I wanted to talk about. I was very thankful for that. Indeed, we did share some good times. I felt a little smile creeping onto my lips, but it quickly disappeared again. 

Then... 'He' died too. I didn't want to believe it in the start, 'he' was all I had... 'He' was my best friend! 'He' died a couple of months ago and I was on my way to the graveyard to visit 'him'. I do that every day. 

I carefully entered the graveyard and walked slowly in the direction of 'his' grave. I attended 'his' funeral back then, but no one ever found 'his' corps, so we buried an empty coffin. I still don't want to believe that 'he's' dead, but I have to face the facts... This world is against me. 

'Ken Kaneki' 

It hurts. Just reading his name in my head, thinking of his smile, the common scenery with him reading a book and me peering over his shoulder. Our memories together. I felt something inside ache and the tears threaten to spill, but I did my best to hold them back. 

"Why... Why Kaneki? Why did you leave me too? Was I really that bad of a friend..?" I questioned aloud, not expecting an answer of course. That was it, the tears I had tried to restrain began to fall as I looked at the grave. "W-Was it my fault?! D-Did I... Do this to you..?" I stuttered through the tears and quiet sobbing. I'm sorry Kaneki, I really am... I thought and felt the strength leave my legs. I collapsed to my knees and bent over, covering my face with my hands. It's all my fault... I thought and sobbed louder than before. "Please Kaneki... C-Come back..!" I looked straight at his name on the stone with puffy eyes. "Come back... To me..." I whispered to the gravestone and felt the wind lightly blow through my (h/l) hair. 

I looked up at the sky, it was getting darker by the minute. "It's getting late..." I mumbled to myself, but deep down, I knew that I didn't care about that. I slowly lowered my head to look at the gravestone again. My heart aching every time I read his name. 'Ken Kaneki', 'Ken Kaneki', 'Ken Kaneki'... 

I turned my head way and carefully looked through my bag and found the little candlelight I had brought him. I lighted it up in silence and respectfully placed it beside his gravestone and bowed forward, still on my knees. 

"I hope that you're feeling well, wherever you might be right now and that..." My voice tried out and I wasn't able to say yet another word. Stupid voice... Fails when I need you the most... I scolded myself and looked sadly at the grave. 

A/N: Hey guys! So, this is my very first time writing a story and I swear I'm doing my best! Feel free to leave a like and follow me for more! Well, see you in the next chapter: Reunion! :3

I do not own Tokyo Ghoul (of course).