Cardiac Arrest (Ereri/Riren AU) (Death Note AU) (L!Levi x Kira!Eren) (COMPLETED)

It's Complicated...

Levi

"... You want my full name?" I asked the brunet, unsure of what to do in response to his request. I knew that there was a small part of my heart that wished I could tell him, but every other part of me told me to ignore that desire. I simply couldn't give a suspect my full name, no matter how much I may have wanted to. It went against everything I knew.

I'm sorry, Eren, I can't tell you...

I turned to the boy, ready to respond when he shook his head, then showing one finger.

"Just my first name?"

He brought his fisted left hand up, making it nod as confirmation.

I stood up, prepared to leave without saying a word. There were thousands of thoughts running through my mind, many of them screaming that telling Eren anything  would be a decision I regretted, but one voice seemed to shout louder than the rest. It was a voice I remembered well, one which I hadn't ever thought I'd hear again.

It was my  voice, but my voice from childhood. It wasn't the low, uninterested tone I now carried with me, but the innocent, caring voice I'd worn until the Underground changed me. It was the voice which expressed my purest thoughts, the voice which processed the information I gained and told me what I  wanted desperately, more than what my brain told me I needed. It was the voice I trusted more than any other, and it was telling me to give Eren my first name.

I was torn between listening to my young self and listening to my brain, the two voices shouting and screaming to be heard and obeyed.

"Levi." I blurted out before realising, my face turning a light pink from the unexpected confession. I quickly waved goodbye to Eren, just before my knees gave out beneath me, my figure crumpling to the floor in surprise.

I ran my hands through my hair, sighing as I did so. "Fuck..."

There was a light laugh as I turned to see Klara besides me. "Why is it that everytime I see you now-a-days, you seem to be having some sort of crisis?" The brunette's expression turned serious as she sat down next to me. "What's up?"

"My mind's a mess, my brain does nothing but confuse me, and the reason I'm this way is because of my top suspect for Kira."

"So Eren's messing with you, without really realising?"

I nodded briefly, my eyes closed, "Who else would it be?"

"Well, I wouldn't be all that surprised if your problem was yourself, if I'm being perfectly honest. You're too hard on yourself. But anyway, how exactly is Eren messing with you?"

"... He asked me for my first name." I reopened my eyes to watch Klara's reaction.

She cocked her head, her face the same as it was before, "Did ya tell him?"

"I didn't mean to." I replied honestly, "I was ready to leave, hell, I was even walking away, but my name just kind of slipped from my mouth before I'd realised it."

"... And that's a bad thing?"

I turned to the brunette, raising an eyebrow, "Do you not think it is?"

She shrugged, "Dustin and Eren both know my full name. Dustin knows a bit of my background too, though it's not in great detail. He knows I grew up in France, and that I ran away before I met Izzy and joined the Underground, and while I didn't rant about it all, he still knows at the end of the day."

"But he's your boyfriend. I don't even know what Eren and I are."

"You sound like you're in love."