MONITOR ° HHJ

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hyunjin
15 MARCH 2018

it's already been weeks

i'm already starting
to wonder if the feelings
i have for you is one-sided

i knew there was something
... why are you trying so
hard to avoid me ???

there is something weird
about you and jisung ...
it looks like all your cute
gestures towards each other
are forced ...

is this all an act ?

pft

i don't think so

the more i see you with
jisung , the more i feel
like moving on from you .

i could only stare at you
from afar , in the canteen

where you and jisung
would normally feed
each other food and be
all lovey dovey

today after school i was
about to leave the class
when mrs seo requested me
to look for you and pass
you a letter for your
parents .

so i thought of looking
for you at your usual
hangout spot , where i
noticed you , jisung and
minho always went to
after school .

the small space beneath
the first floor staircase .

i was approaching the spot
when i heard your loud
laughs , together with minho's .

i stood near the stairway ,
listening to what jisung
was telling the two of you .

" so i heard felix asking
the boys for some book
recommendations and
guess what changbin
answered him with "
i heard him say excitedly.

" i don't know , what ? "
you replied chuckling .

" he said the BIBLE
HAHAHHAHAHAHA "
he started laughing and
then you and minho
laughed along .

" he should have said
that to you and not felix "
minho said .

" EXCUSE ME HE SHLD
HAVE SAID THAT TO ARA
BECAUSE SHE STILL
HAVEN'T CONFESSED TO
HYUNJIN YET " jisung
exclaimed .

" YAH LOWER DOWN YOUR
VOICE LAH IDIOT " i
heard you shout back .

wait .... so what does this
mean ....?

" seriously ara , you have to
confess to him !! do something
so that he will know about
your feelings " jisung continued .

" true , it's been one month
of you two pretending to
date ... what was the main
purpose of this whole thing
anyways ??? to make him
and ryujin jealous right ?? but
why aren't they doing anything "
minho stated .

PRETENDING to date ????

" you're right ... it's obvious
he doesn't really have feelings
towards me ... " i heard you
say with a softer voice .

i saw jisung hit minho
on his shoulder , glaring
at him and minho
mouthing 'shit' in return .

" no ara ... don't think that
way okay ? alright how about
this ... if anything happens
between you and hyunjin this
week , we will "break up" and
you will confess ? " jisung
sat beside you and patted
your back .

" what about you and ryujin ? "
you asked jisung , looking up
to face his face .

" i don't really know , it'll
go on as one-sided love i
guess " he replied , sighing .

" damn , how did a joke
about the bible get to an emo
conversation " minho laughed .

it seemed to brighten up
the mood after i saw you
chuckle .

so it was all actually an act huh ...

should i try playing around
with your feelings too ?

like how you played
pretend with a guy
whom you didn't even
have feelings for .