Revealed

48. Solane

By now, it's completely dark outside. I'm so tired from writing my poem. I didn't even rest my hands for that long while doing it. My middle finger had been shaped by the pen. It's uncomfortable but at the same time, gives me a sense of accomplishment.

Jeremy doesn't stop trying to look at me. It's obvious he wants to hear my poem. I look down into my lap and chuckle. Pulling the poem from my pocket, I unfold it and begin.

"I'm running out of air. Out of hopes. Out of dreams. Happiness. It's not fair that I think too much. My mind is running in circles. On a loop, on repeat."

The mood becomes very serious so abruptly. It actually scares me a little.

"On repeat of everything. I want it to stop. I want everything to stop. At least for a minute. Let me catch my breath. My heart can't take this much pain. My soul can't take this much rejection. My spirit can't take this much disappointment..." I take a pause to breathe before I continue. I'm beginning to cry. I hadn't realized how much these words made me relate and remember things I shouldn't have.

Goosebumps consume my arms which have wrapped themselves around each other.

"Tears, they flow like a waterfall that never ends. How could I have this much air and not be able to breathe? This much space and not be able to fly. Why me? How could a child be so innocent and be stuck. Be stuck with everything and nothing at the same time."

Jeremy places his hand on my arm. "Solane, take a breather. This is some deep stuff. It actually sent chills up my body. You don't have to read it right now."

All my feelings are out of the bag and I'm a complete mess. My tears have reddened the whites of my eyes. Jeremy notices it and stretches to give me a hug. Without thinking, I quickly turn that hug into a kiss, and then another, and then another. He doesn't stop me. We both want it. Everything else that happens after that is a blur. But I can say for a fact that I Solane Royal am in love with Jeremy Thorne.