Hindi ko na masundan ang mga nangyayari I really feel weak and unfocused, all i can remember as Lance entered the room is that everything is in chaos.
I heard sound of whimpers then punches and grunts and there's was a gunshot.A gunshot. And I am certain it is from this room.
One.
Two.
Three.
Three loud shots is all i can remember and loud thuds of falling.
Hindi ko alam kung sino. Hindi ko alam.Baka si Mica. Baka si Aubrey o si Erika. Baka si Lily o baka ako.
Baka nga hindi na kami makakalabas.
Series of punches and grunts resounding the room and someone shouting something like "Hindi ito ang pinapagawa ko sainyo"
"Hindi mo ako mauutusan gago"
at alam ko na kami ang pinaguusapan nila. Hindi ko alam ang pakikinggan ang mararamdaman physically and emotionaly. I'm tired. Really tired that darkness is all i can remember.
Naalimpungatan ko na maingay. Sobrang ingay. Sobrang lamig. Nanlalabo pa rin ang paningin ko pero nagawa ko paring makita ang sitwasyon na akala ko tapos na.
In the same room. The same people. Different situation.
Si Mica ang nalingunan ko na umiiyak still in the same corner of the room pati na sina Eruka at Aubrey na parang wala pa sa tamang huwisyo. Nakatulala. The difference is the guys who held us hostage were unmoving.Nakahiga na silang lahat at duguan.Cold dead. Nalipat yung tingin ko sa gitna na kilalang kilala ko na nakabulagta.
Lily.
I didnt exactly remember what happened and my current estate is not helping. Halo halo agad yung naiisip ko. Nahirapan ako agad huminga. Kinakabaan ako ng sobra. I still feel dizzy and with wobbly legs I try to stand and walk. Step by step untill I reach Lily's form and drop to my knees as I look at her.
Her eyes half open. Bruises cuts, and naked. Naked for us to see what she had been through, how horrible and traumatic. I touched her face she flinch. I flinch too.
"Lily"
I manage to crook her name . It even hurts saying her name. Masyadong masakit.
"Oh god. Lily." she whimpers like its too much for her to even whimpers. Then her half open eyes fully closed now. Suminghap ako na parang mauubusan na ako ng hangin na parang mawawalan na din ako ng hininga kasabay ng pagpikit ng mata nya. I touched her body and shake her.
"Lily?"
Slowly. Shake her again and again.
"Lily?!" My voice sounds desperate. Sounds pain.
Harshly this time. She didnt answer me.
"Oh god."
" Please no. Lily please no no no. Wake up. Aalis na tayo. Wala na sila. Aalis na tayo please." Yumuko ako para pakinggan kung tumitibok pa.
Bakit wala?!
"Please wag naman ganito."
Hinwakan ko lahat ng pulsong lam kong meron sya. Wala. Wala na. Wala nanaman akong nagawa. Natataranta ko syang hinawakan sa kamay, sa mukha, sa katawan.
"Aalis na tayo."
"Gising."
"Please."
I touch her hand her face her neck her pulse. Nothing and I do it again and again hoping i was just unfocused and couldnt see things clearly. Baka mali ako. Baka okay pa sya.
"Please Lily. Don't do this to me."
Ang hirap bigla huminga.
"Ano ba gumising ka aalis na tayo."
