The week at Addy's was great. Her mother and father were so kind and before I knew it New years was approaching. There wasn't as big a celebration for new years as there was for christmas. The TV was on, broadcasting times square in New York City. The ball was soon to drop. This was apparently the one night Emma was aloud to stay up late, and I was surprised she was able to. She told me she was sticking ice cubes down her pajamas to stay up because she had seen it in Arthur. Ms. Watson didn't let her do that for long as eventually she was leaving a puddle wherever she went. Emma always found a way to make me laugh. We all counted down as the people on TV did. Addy and I shared a New year's kiss after blowing into our noise makers Emma insisted we get upon a trip to the dollar store a few days ago. Both of us were smiling into it. Mr. Watson kissed Ms. Watson and Emma didn't have anyone to kiss so she kissed her teddy bear she had latched onto for the night. I assume it's her favorite because every night she'll drag it around the house After dinner. Emma realized Carter had no one to kiss either so she reached for Carter to carry her. He picked her up and settled her on his hip. Emma kissed him on the cheek, but I'm not exactly sure if you could call it a kiss considering she just smooshed her tiny face to his cheek and made a "mwah" sound. Carter started laughing and I swooned at the sight.
We said our goodbyes. Emma was sad for us to leave. She made sure she gave us all a big goodbye hug. We hopped on yet another train back to the apartment. We entered our cold home that hadn't been heated in over a week. The first thing Addy did was turn on the heater. It took awhile for the apartment to heat up but soon it did. It was good to be home. My wanderlust and been satisfied. It was great to be home, but being home means break is over soon. Break being over soon means classes are starting again, really soon. We really only have tomorrow and then it's back to the lecture halls for me. This break although over a month almost felt too short, but that's college for you. I must say I cherished it because the next one is easter, which is only a week in duration.
We all went to bed after eating at the food court. I almost felt like a stranger to the place as it had been so long since we've gone there. Addy, Carter and I all got spaghetti just as a welcome back gift to ourselves. Nothing like Food court spaghetti could make you feel more at home. It locked me down and helped me remember where I was, because although my body and everyone else's soul-vessels in a sense were back on campus, my mind was still in New Hampshire. Heck, some of it was still in New York City. after we got back Addy went nearly straight to bed along with Carter but I didn't. I told them not to worry and that I'd turn all the lights off when I came up. I didn't have a fear of being the last one up like carter did, so I was fine. I must admit, It does spark up a bit of fear in you as you have to climb the ladder in the dark like you're climbing your way out of the pits of hell, your only motivation being the light from the bedside table lamps that ever so slightly pool up and run down the ends of the loft, making it visible from under. I sat at the window where I always like to, somewhat like a cat does now that I think of it. I sat there with my feet up on the ledge as well as my butt and leaned against the window pane. In the dim light from a nearby lamp I sat and stared at all the little hairs I possessed on my knee, along with the little intricate triangular patterns my pale skin made up upon a closer look. I remember lonely nights where I would compare myself to the world on everyday objects. For example, maybe I'm just the size of a tiny hair on my leg compared to my whole body which is the world, and maybe that little freckle I have on my thigh is the size of my whole town. My whole, damn, tiny, idle town. My town where nothing. Ever. happened. God am I happy to be out of there.
You know, You don't realize how far you've come 'till you really take a while to reflect on everything. You could tell my laugh has become more genuine and the amount of breakdowns I have has been reduced from multiple times every day to maybe once a week at the very most. Maybe twice. Of course I still am depressed, it doesn't just magically go away because I found love and all, but I definitely have improved. Having people always around me helps because I can even forget about the demons in my head for a little while. Even when I do break down the few occasions Addy has witnessed me do it she has tried her best to comfort me. I really appreciate it. I used to feel so alone and like I was the only one who had these problems I dealt with every day. Granted I try not to get her involved in my depression, I don't like dragging people into my problems. Even the breakdowns I have now I wouldn't consider as severe as they used to. Of course some are worse than others, And don't really think since I've came to this apartment i've had more than one or two bad ones. So that's good. Who knew an extra terrestrial romance between the moon and the sun could make you feel "normal" again.
*hey i'm back!
you know what i shouldn't even feel sorry i didn't update last week i had done so much work on the story already i needed a tiny break. I still felt bad and typed this all up in one night out of guilt. Its short but it's something. I can't promise it but I might get another chapter out by Sunday. Don't count on it though. Well I hope you're doing well. Stay hydrated folks. *evaporates*
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Reinvent Love
Romancewho knew an extra terrestrial love between the sun and the moon could make someone's whole world, that it could make someone smile flowers and feel high on starlight?
