Stef and Lena (MyLove)❤️

18

STEF'S POV:

Well the weekend away had ended unfortunately, things all went too quick and I wished they hadn't. I've never felt so close to Lena as I have right now. This is what we needed, time away to reconnect and forget about everything with Tess, until...

It was a 3 hour drive with traffic, and we had our separate cars so we had no company. I rang her on loud speaker the whole way, not hearing her voice was strange and needed.

Once we had arrived at our parking lot we dragged our luggage to our apartments. I went home and so did she.

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LENA'S POV:

I almost arrived at my door as I pulled the keys out from my bag, I unlocked my door being greeted by loads of bills. Fun. So I picked them all up dragging my luggage in from behind flicking threw the letters. Bills. Bills. Bill. Until I saw a hand written letter, a hand writing which was very unfamiliar to me. I ripped open the back of the envelope pulling out the letter written on one side of lined paper. I started reading with a questioning face as the letter quotes:

'Dear Lena,

First of all, I do not appreciate the way you pull Stef away from me. I do not like how you become so controlling and overpowering to Stef.

I get that your a crazy psycho and you became jealous of me, but thanks to your actions she's chosen you. You will be sorry Lena.

You cannot just flutter your eyes and steal her away from me. She was mine first so stop being a crazy bitch fighting for ownership and let her go before you break her heart.

Ps. If you tell her about this, you'll regret it and I will do something to Stef in return. 

From Stef's best friend and true love: Tess'

The letter made my whole body quiver with anger. How was I supposed say goodbye to love of my life. I had every right to be worried about Tess and Stef was oblivious. Gosh what do I do? I can't just walk away but I can't live thinking Tess is watching my every move. She can't control how me and Stef feel about each other but my insecurities were right. There is something going on, maybe not Stef's side but most certainly Tess' side.

I made up my mind, maybe Tess was right. I didn't want to break Stef's heart in the future, I didn't want to lead stef further for everything to fall apart because of Tess. I picked up my phone and started messaging her:

'I'm so sorry, I can't do this Stef'

Tears ran quicker than a river, soon my feet will be stood in puddles of my tears. I was heart broken but I couldn't tell Stef why, other wise Tess would do something to make me regret it. I don't understand, they hadn't seen each other for so long but as soon as she sees Stef with someone else she becomes the psycho bitch. Aghhh. Frustration and anger ran through my body as I crouched down leaning against the wall with my head buried into my hands. I heard my phone ping assuming it was going to be Stef but I couldn't bring myself to see the reply. I took a deep breath looking at my phone:

'What do you mean Lena? Please don't say you're breaking up with me.'

I could only imagine how nervous she was feeling. I had to tell her we're done, I can't leave her guessing.

'I'm sorry Stef. Goodbye'

This message broke my heart into two halves. I couldn't be without her, I loved her. I loved her so damn much it made me feel like a crazy loved up teenager again but I couldn't risk anything happening to Stef. 

I sat and cried for hours. Just as things started to move on something would cause us to step back again. I was sick of something preventing us from being together so maybe all these step backs were a sign. Maybe we're not perfect for each other and as much as this pains me to think, maybe she's better off with Tess.
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STEF'S POV:

WHAT?!?! Lena was breaking up with me? But why? We had such an amazing weekend away, we've become stronger than ever. Maybe that's what she's scared of. Maybe she doesn't like that we're moving too fast:

'Please Lena, don't do this. I'm sorry if we moved too quick. Just don't let what we have stop. I love you and I meant it'

I hoped this message would change her mind as the salty tears stained my face. I couldn't understand. WHY? Why when everything was going so good that it all gets thrown away. The 3 hour phone call we had was good, she was happy, she laughed and smiled through the phone. I don't understand what's changed her mind so quick.

I guess I'm not the women she wants after all, I guess I'm worthless and just another waste of time to a women. I started developing feelings stronger than ever for her and I wanted to propose eventually but now I'll never have the chance to fall so deep for anyone the way I did for her.

I'm just a waste of space to people. Im worthless, and a joke.

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A/N: what did you think of this chapter? Quite emotional right? Hopefully Stef and Lena find a way to over power this, but how?

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