Stef and Lena (MyLove)❤️

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LENA'S POV:

I headed straight home after the medical centre, I couldn't wait for Stef to come home or call, but I didn't know if she was busy or not so maybe I should ring her. Ring ring. I rang several times but she didn't answer, I know this morning she said she would call and I know she will when she has a moment of free time, I was just so impatient.

I started to cook a big meal, Stef's favourite, Tequila Lime Chicken With Mango Salsa, and I was going to get the best bottle of wine and tell her I am stable enough to carry a baby, all depending on my fertility levels.

It was almost 7:00 and still no call from Stef, I was worried and she promised to be home early, she even swore a phone call yet I hadn't heard from her. I thought she wanted this just as much as I did, I thought she was just as excited as me. I guess not.

Dinner was done and I wasn't going to sit around and wait, wait for a call, wait for her to turn up, so I ate my dinner and headed up for a bath. By the time I had finished my dinner, cleaned the kitchen and put Stef's dinner in the oven ready to re-heat and ran my bath it was 8:45 and I was bored of waiting around. So I hopped in the bath and relaxed for a while, I started to read in the bath while I played relaxing music off my phone and smelt the candles burn.

"HELLO!" I heard Stef shout from downstairs. 9:00! How could she be this late. I didn't respond so she searched the rooms and soon found me in the bathroom. "Hey hunny, sorry I got caught up at work, dinner smells good"

"Yours is in the oven. Ive eaten." I replied bluntly, gosh, she apologised for work, and she didn't even ask how it went today. She headed down and ate her dinner while I finished my bath and got into my pyjamas. She soon re-entered the room and got in her pyjamas herself and slid in the bed beside me.

I had my back against her and she curled up to the back of my and ran her hand up my top cupping my breast as she kissed my neck softly humming.

"Not tonight Stef." I snapped.

"Hunny, are you teasing me again?" She said as she continued.

"No stef. Leave me alone" I moaned as my eyes watered out of her sight.

"Baby what's wrong? Talk to me...please" she begged, I rolled over and revealed my tears.

"You promised you'd call, you promised you'd be home early, and you haven't even asked about the medical centre, I had my fertility levels checked, and you haven't even asked... I mean... is this really what you want? Or do you just not care? Stef... I can't be doing this alone... I need it to be us" I let out as tears flooded my face and Stef backed away sitting up beside me realising her mistake.

"Shit. Lena I'm so sorry, I've been so busy at work I completely forgot. And I promise you is not just you, it is us and I do want this more than anything... so what did they say?" She asked.

"I'm stable enough to carry a baby. And that's the news you would have gotten if you was home when you said. I made the effort Stef, I made your favourite meal, I had plans for us, and I need you to make the effort too Stef. I need you to meet me half way" I love her so damn much, and I need her to be just as much on board as I am. I need her to put in the effort too.

"I know baby, and I will. I'm so sorry I forgot to call, and I wanted to come home but I got so busy and..."

"And you should of called or texted at least, this is the happiest news I've had in so long and it's like it's not even important to you. Why?" I say as I interrupt her.

"I do want this. I-I'm just scared" she blurts out.

"Scared of what?" I ask.

"I'm scared Incase of what people think. Two lesbian mothers. What if our child thinks it's too weird and feels like it needs a fatherly figure in their life, what if something goes wrong, I mean we haven't had much luck in our life Lena, and maybe we should have a vacation first or have a little adventure because people say you can't do these things once you've got a child. I want a baby, so bad but do you want this child right now? If you do, then I'm on board, always baby" she said. But something was off putting. I knew in the past I was the one suffering with insecurities, but this time it's Stef, and it's hard to deal with and I understand that. But to me it sounded like she wanted to live more life first before signing up to motherhood, but I was ready.

"I'm ready. But I'm not going through with this if you're not"

"Lena, I'm ready then, if your are then I am. We can do this" she said as her tears dropped from her chin, but deep inside I felt she was only saying this because it's something I want her to say, I can't have a baby now if she's not ready.

"Are you just saying that because it's something I want to hear? Or because it's what you want? Even so, it may not even be a possibility yet, I need to wait for my fertility levels and find a donor and implant the sperm, we have time hunny" I explained as she nodded to the soothing sound of my voice reassuring her.

"No, I'm ready, we're going to be great parents. I love you" She said holding me tight and placing several kisses around my cheek.

"I love you too"
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A/N: here's another update, thank you for being supportive and I think next chapter consists of Lena receiving a phone call from the medical centre and maybe a visit from an old friend.

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