Temporary Bliss [boyxboy]

42: Progress

Caleb

When I woke in the morning, it was too a foot sinking into my stomach and a sharp gasp following that sensation.

"Fuck, Finn," I complained, opening my eyes and seeing him sitting on the edge of the hotel bed, glaring at me.

"If you hadn't just dropped right next to the bed, this wouldn't have happened," he said coldly, stepping over me and continuing into the bathroom.

At the icy tone my heart dropped as I remembered just why I had dropped right next to this hotel bed. I dropped my head back onto the hardwood floor with a sigh and looked up at the ceiling, wondering what the hell I was going to do.
I was determined to get Finn back, but to be quite honest, that was proving to be a little more difficult than anticipated.

I groaned quietly as I sat up, noticing how my back hurt. Sleeping on a hardwood floor definitely hadn't been part of my plan.
The fact that Finn was so stubborn made me want him even more though. It was both infuriating and endearing.

"Don't you have work today?" the door to the en suite bathroom opened back up and Finn stepped out.

"I'm taking today off," I replied, finally hoisting myself up into a sitting position.

"There's no point," said the blonde boy flatly.
I really wasn't in the mood to argue this early in the morning, but the younger boy was making it very hard to resist.

"The point is you, Finn."

"Right," he muttered, buttoning up a red and black flannel, clearly not believing me.

"How many times do I have to tell you?" I asked in exasperation.

"I don't know. Maybe the better question is why I should believe you anymore. Who says you're not just lying so you don't lose your only real friend?"

I stared up at him disbelievingly, "I can't believe you'd accuse me of that when-"

"Accuse you of what?!" Finn cut me off, "Of lying? Are you sure you want to go there, because I think the only reason we're in this situation right now is because you spew absolute bullshit, Caleb!"

"I'm sorry!" I exclaimed, and I had to cringe at how worn out those two words were starting to feel, "I'm sorry I lied to you, I feel terrible. But I'm not lying now and you know it. I'm doing all this for you, and it's shitty for me as well. It's not like I'm over the moon about the fact that I like you."

I regretted it immediately after it was out, cursing myself for always speaking and then thinking.

"Because I'm a guy? You don't want to like me because I'm a guy?"

"No, Finn - I didn't mean-"

"Stop lying, for fuck's sake! You did mean it, so man up and admit it!" Finn shouted, "And I'm very sorry I'm not convenient for you - it must be a hard life."

He said the last part with just a little too much sarcasm, and it irked me.

"Yeah, actually it is hard," I started, "It is because my parents would never speak to me again if they knew. And I know I haven't gone through what you have, but if anyone should be able to understand not wanting to lose your parents it should be you! You always act like I don't have any feelings at all, but I do, alright? And it's not fair that you're shrugging me off like this when I'm here trying to show you how much you really mean to me."

It was silent for a short while and Finn sighed. He didn't say anything though, so I continued:

"I was never supposed to like you, okay? But I do, and that's just the way it is, I'm not even that mad about it anymore. Hell, I don't even really care if my parents find out - that all went out the window the second you left. All I want is for you to come home because I hate that you're not there. I can't let you just cut ties with me like this Finn, I can't imagine not seeing you and talking to you anymore... you've always been there..."