Promise • 전정국 (DISCONTINUED)

34 | Realization

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"Would you believe me if everything felt fearful to me too?"

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The day I left Jungkook's hometown brought a slight feeling of sadness upon me. Even if I was only there for two full days, I was hesitant to leave. I knew once I got back to Seoul, there was no more carefree time for me. Waving my farewell to Jungkook's parents was probably the most heartwarming moment for me. They told me I should come and visit again soon and I agreed wholeheartedly. The train ride back really just consisted me falling into a deep sleep. For some odd reason, I kept replaying Jungkook's mothers' words in my head. All I ask is that you please look after him. Care for him. Love him. Support him.

What is love even supposed to look like? What does she think love is? Am I even capable of loving someone? I've never really experienced love with someone who wasn't family and even with family, it's a lot different. It's easier to say 'I love you' to your mom, dad or aunt or sibling but will I ever be able to tell Jungkook those three words and mean it?

"Hey roach, you're home."

I lifted my head up from against the window and let my eyes take in the familiar setting.

"Yay, so exciting." I lifted my hands in the air midway and wiggled my fingers.

"Tsk. You have such a high level of sarcasm." He opened the door and got out before coming over to my side and opening my door for me. I slipped a leg out, one after the other and pushed myself up and out of the car.

"Thank you."

"Mhm." He walked to the trunk of the taxi and opened it up, lifting out my suitcase and placing it in front of me.

"Did you not bring much? Your suitcase is so light." He lifted my suitcase again as if trying to see if he was just imagining it.

"I'm not a heavy packer." I chuckled.

"I can see that." He looked up to me. "I'll let you go on your own from here. I wouldn't be surprised if your parents were looking through the window right now."

I gave him a tight smile. "Yeah, it sounds like something they'd do. If they are, at least they'll see that you dropped me off safely."

"They'll also see this." He brought his lips in contact with mine, grazing his slender fingers over my cheek. I kissed him back and when we pulled apart, I threw my arms around him, resting the side of my face on his chest.

"Thanks for taking me to your hometown."

I felt his arms snake around my waist, giving me a strange tingly feeling since I always felt a tad uncomfortable when being touched around that area.

"No. Thank you for coming. I enjoy taking trips with you."

I pulled my head back and placed a peck on his nose. "Perhaps we can take more trips in the future?"

"Definitely." He nodded and let loose of his embrace on me. "I'll text you when I get home."

"No. You better call me." I pointed to his phone which was in his hand.

"Yes, ma'am." He laughed.

I smiled and turned around to head towards the front door of my house. I grabbed the keys from the front pocket of my suitcase and unlocked the door.

"Eomma? Appa? I'm home!" I looked around the living room and I almost cracked up laughing internally when I saw them together, bug-eyed in shock as they stood by the window, just like Jungkook had said earlier.