Promise • 전정국 (DISCONTINUED)

46 | Caught

"Yes, I'm a little dangerous. Even I can't handle me."

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There was no telling who was more shocked. Jungkook or me. It was silent a majority of the ride to his house and the verbal communication was very limited even when both of us sat, arms crossed and hands caressing our elbows on his bed.

The non-use of words began to pester me so I elbowed him gently, giving him a nudge where his ribs were.

"You know, it would be great if the Jungkook who is filled with dirty thoughts could come through the door just about now."

He chuckled. "I'm not shy or anything. I'm just sort of—surprised, I guess. I would have never imagined those words to come out of your mouth. I'm still taking it in."

"Well, perhaps I should just get to it then." I slid off of the soft mattress, determined to show my boyfriend that I could keep to my word.

His eyes could only follow my figure as I knelt down below him.

"Wait, Y/N, you don't have to do this, you know."

My eyebrows sunk in towards each other. "What? You don't think I can give a decent blowjob?"

"Ani, it's just, I know you don't usually do, well, you know, this kind of stuff. You don't have to prove anything."

"I'm your girlfriend. Shouldn't I be doing these sort of things? I may keep to myself or I may come off as the most innocent girl ever and I may not be impulsive and risk-taking, but—" I brought my hands over to the buckle of his belt, slowly undoing it. "I am ambitious and practical. It doesn't matter what it's towards."

His Adam's apple bobbed up, indicating a hard gulp. I took his loss of words as a good sign and continued my actions. 

Sure, on the outside it may have looked as if I knew what I was doing but deep inside, I was going full-on rogue.

Yeah, I had no idea how to give a blowjob but if it was as easy as the smuts I read made it seem, then I think I would be able to manage.

I wasn't exactly nervous but the thought that I would be giving a blowjob to not only my boyfriend but to a guy for the first time was unreal to me. It's just one of those things that I could never see myself doing. 

I wasn't sure on if I was supposed to dirty talk him as I got ready but even if I should have, I decided it wasn't going to happen because imagining it in my head caused me to cringe.

It wasn't to my realization that I had gotten through to his boxers until he cleared his throat. My eyes shifted up to his and he instantly turned away.

"Y/N, I know I make promises a lot but—I can't promise that if you do this, I won't go overboard."

"Jungkook, I swear to God if you keep talking I'm going to start regretting ever having this idea in the first place."

"Okay, okay. I'll stop talking." He laughed, laying down on his back. "I might as well get comfortable then."

"Suit yourself." All I had to do now, was pull down this intimidating piece of fabric.

You can do this, Y/N.

I grabbed the hem of his boxers, beginning to pull downwards. I had learned that if you wanted to do something seductively, you would have to make your actions slow.