bts angst,, book two ✍︎

kth,, saturn

SATURN; how rare and beautiful it truly is that we exists.

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taehyung walked up the stage, hands trembling anxiously as he sat down infront of a black grand piano. this is it. he's finally preforming his own song. he glanced at the crowd of armys, smiling once he hears their supportive cheers.

"surprise surprise, guys! i'm performing my own song tonight! i—i hope you guys like it. it's inspired by a person that i loves deeply, but she's up there now," he said with a bright smile and glossy eyes, pointing up at the open sky.

"she used to always blabber about the universe, since she loves astronomy. she always say that the universe was sometimes meant to be seen by special people, for some odd reason. and i'm one of those special people," he let out a small laugh, the crowd following as well," she always say that being alive is truly beautiful. so yeah, my song is called saturn, and i hope you guys like it."

he placed the microphone on the stand as he sat down comfortablyat the chair, taking a deep breath and closing his eyes before letting his fingers play the notes he knows by heart.

"you taught me the courage of stars before you left.
how light carries on endlessly, even after death.
with shortness of breath, you explained the infinite.
how rare and beautiful it is to even exist."

he started, his voice quivering slightly as he recalls his memories with his deceased girlfriend—y/n.

her smile. her eyes. her laugh.

"i couldn't help but ask
for you to say it all again.
i tried to write it down
but I could never find a pen.
i'd give anything to hear
you say it one more time,
that the universe was made
just to be seen by my eyes."

the way her mood immediately lightens up everytime she talks about her favourite things.

"i couldn't help but ask
for you to say it all again.
i tried to write it down
but I could never find a pen.
i'd give anything to hear
you say it one more time,
that the universe was made
just to be seen by my eyes."

everything about her was perfect. they were perfect. until she was diagnosed with a deadly disease. she was still smiling, even though she knows she was going to die soon.

though, instead of mourning and being depressed, she became more adventurous, always dragging taehyung out of the house to go hiking or do outside activities.

but it all ended too quickly.

"with shortness of breath, i'll explain the infinite
how rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist."

he remembered her last words.

he remembered her saying that he shouldn't be sad and continued living on.

but she made him promise one thing, that everytime he looks up at the stars at night, he should continue being happy and remember their memories together.

her last words, her last breath, she used it to tell him that it was a wonderful life, spending it with him.

"how rare and beautiful it truly is that we exists."

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i have no fuucking idea why i wrote this

eh
enjoy this crappy chapter lmao

- awkwardking