bts angst,, book two ✍︎

jhs,, sunshine

You are my sunshine. My only sunshine..

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I saw a hand stretched in front of me. Begging for me to hold it.

"Hi! I'm Kim (Y/N). What's yours?" She smiled, making me flustered.

"Jung Hoseok," I murmured. She pulled me out of the corner I was hiding in. I smiled at her with sincerity.

"Let's play together. You know, you remind of the sun. You're so cute," She pinched my cheeks and giggled.
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"Ya! (Y/N)! Hurry out. I have someone to introduce to you," I heard a yell outside of my dorm room. I sighed as I stood up and opened the door.

"It's so early. What do you want?" I scratched my head in annoyance.

"You know what, let's just spend the day together," Hoseok walked inside and sat on the couch.

"What?" I stared at him in confusion and he stared back. We were just staring at each other for who knows how long. I looked at him with big eyes as he licked his lips.

"Let's go out for breakfast," I saw a faint blush on his cheeks as I rushed to my room and got changed.

We talked and talked as we arrived at the coffee shop. We sat the the window, facing each other in our seats.

"Caramel Macchiato?" He stood up and asked as I nodded. I stared at him as he walked away, suddenly feeling sad and nervous.

Why does it always have to hurt?

"Here you go," He gently placed the cup in front of me and place his own in front of him. He smiled gently as I smiled back.

"It's such a nice day," I looked outside with delight. I felt him stare at me as I looked down.

After chatting for a while, we decided to go back to the dorm.

"Here you are," He tiptoed back and forth and I smiled.

"I guess. See you tomorrow?" I placed my hands in my pockets and looked at him.

"Tomorrow," He nodded and walked off.
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But if you leave me to allow another,
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"(Y/N)!" There was a pound on the door as I groaned and stood up from the couch.

I walked over to the door knowing that it was him again. I gently slowly opened the door, becoming nervous all of a sudden. Why?

I was greeted by Hoseok's smiling face and another familiar person.

Moon Jae Eun. The prettiest girl and my bestest of friends.

My face suddenly dropped as I saw their hands intertwined.
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You'll have shattered all of my dreams.

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They smiled at me as I felt my heart ache.

I smiled back. It was an instant reaction to pain. Was to pretend that nothing was there. That there was no pain at all.

"(Y/N)," Jae Eun smiled and showed me their intertwined hands.

It hurts so much.

I smiled and said in a joyful tone, "I'm so happy for the both of you! You guys look so good together."

Hoseok blushed and Jae Eun giggled.

"We just wanted to tell you since you know, you're both our friend," Jae Eun smiled, her eyes were glistening. She was happy.

"It's great," My eyes became dull," see you later!"

I shut the door and ran to the washroom. Tears were falling all of a sudden.

It hurts so much. Why? It just feels that way.

It hurts that I never got to keep him. Keep him in my arms, in my heart.

I regret so many things and now it hurts.

Please come back.
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You never know, dear.
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.
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Bless for I hab updated!!
Pretty bad but oh well
-awkwardintrovert