bts angst,, book two ✍︎

jhs,, smile

SMILE; the brighter your smile, the easier the tears fall.

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ever since i was little, my father would always tell me that my heart was kind; always telling me that who ever is the person that i choose to spend my entire life will be so lucky. he always tell me to be careful of my heart, and then give to a person once i am sure.

i tried to listen to his advice. i really did.

i met someone who was the same as me. bright smiles. big heart. taehyung. but there was something different about him. he have sad and distant eyes.

at first, i thought that it was just my mind. but as our relationship grew, his eyes started to become more sadder and sadder.

one night, he snapped.

he hang himself right in front of me. i didn't knew what to do.

so i just stood there like an idiot. watching the smile from my lover's lips fade away as their soul left their body.

i still remember their last words.

"hoseok, be happy for me."

ever since then i kept on having nightmares.

i tried moving on.

i tried dating again.

"you're way too clingy."

"why do you always smile?"

"you have such sad eyes."

"why do you talk so much?"

i welcomed those negativity with a bright smile, even if i'm breaking apart under my smiling mask.

at that point, i was giving up.

i was just wearing a happy mask.

now, i know what taehyung feels like.

and then i met her.

a girl that never smiles.