bts angst,, book two ✍︎

Jjk ,, call

[Y/n Pov]

I waited for you to come but you never came. I pushed those negative thoughts away and waited for another hour.

"Miss, we're closing soon.." a waiter politely said.

"I'm sorry. I'll get going, have a nice night." I snatched my bag and walked home.

I got stood up. Well, I kind of expected it since, Jeon Jungkook is one of the best worker and the most handsome in our company. I knew it was too good to be true when he asked me out. I'm used to getting hurt and I know i'm not good enough. Why did I even say yes? Oh yeah, because I'm madly in-love with him.

"Y/n!" Someone said from the other side of the road.

I turned to look and saw a sweating Jungkook waving his hand.

"Jungkook.?" I confusingly said and started walking towards him.

Suddenly, his face changed to a panicked one.

"SHIT! Y/N HURRY!" He yelled panicking.

"Huh..?" I said stopping in the middle of the road confused.

Then, I heard a car honking..coming my way. The last thing I could remember was Jungkook running towards me while I lay down on the road blood around me.

[Jk Pov]

It's all my fault. I should've came early..But I can't leave my sick mother alone..

"No! It's all your fault that my daughter is— ugh!" Y/n's mom cried.

"I didn't mean to..My mom—" I tried to explain but was cut off.

"Leave before I knock you out." Her dad coldly said glaring at me.

I sighed and walked out of the hospital disappointed.

I'm such a failure. I was the reason why my dad left us.. Why I lose the people I love. I hurt y/n I know I did, and I'm very sorry. I should be the one in this hospital not her.

[Flashback]

"Mom, i'm going on a date will you be fine alone?" I yelled from my room while I got ready.

Silence. My heart started to beat like crazy. 

"Mom?" I ran towards the living room to find her watching tv.

"Mom, i'm meeting someone.. Are you okay with that? I'll be back as soon as possible. I'll also have aunt to come look after you."

"Of course honey." She slowly replied.

I called my aunt and she had something to do so I have to wait. But it lasted for 3 hours. I couldn't cancel the date, It's very special—but I should've called.. fuck.

Aunt soon came and I rushed out the door hoping she waited for me.

When I was running, I saw her walk out of the restaurant.

I messed up. Big time.

"Y/n!" I called from the other side of the road.

[Flashback ends]

I slammed the door and flopped down the bed. Tears started flowing down my cheeks and my nose were turning red. I'm so tired..of everything. I want to be happy for once in my life. But my only way of being happy is now soon to be gone. What did I do to deserve this?

couple of weeks later____

I made sure the knot was tight before I put my head through the hole.

I lost everything..This is the ONLY way for me to be happy.

I let out an airy gasp as soon as I kicked the chair and started to kick. 

While I struggled, my teary eyes landed on my family picture. 

Every single happy moments when I was a kid flashed in my head, one by one. 

My parents was so happy and healthy, but when my dad died,  everything fell apart. 

My eyes started to roll up and my mouth was wide open hoping to get more air, but sadly, I failed. The bedsheet around my neck got tighter and tighter. 

Then suddenly, I felt my weak, tired, helpless body smash to the ground..Like how a vase fell to the ground and shattered. I'm shattered.

Ring~ Ring~

My phone sang. I crawled my way to my phone and answered the call.

"Jungkook? 

I..just want to let you know that I survived and i'm very well..Do you want to reschedule the date?" 

her voice sounded like honey to me. I felt my heart beating when I answered, 

"Y/n. How are you?" my lips weakly curled into a small crescent. 

"I'm fine mr.jeon, will you answer my question?" she chuckled.

I leaned my head on the wall still smiling,

"That's good news...I'm sorry for what happened.." i apologized and continued to ignore her question.

"It's okay kook -oh the doctor's coming i'll speak to you later, i lov-" she cut herself when she noticed what she was about to say.

"y/n, " i called.

"hm?" she hummed sweetly.

"I love you too

but, I have to leave."