bts angst,, book two ✍︎

jhs,, look

July 13, 2019

I look out the window, still waiting if you're coming back. Why did you leave me, Hoseok?

I tried calling out for you but you never came.

Did I do something wrong?

I blamed myself everyday. I told myself that you left because of the monster I am. I'm sorry. I don't know if I'm the one who should apologize.

I would look for you from the place we met to the place you disappeared. I would always look out the window thinking that you would show up at my door.

You left a hole in my heart. You left without a goodbye.

Where are you?

I feel like I should move on and stop looking. But I love you.

May 4, 2022

I'm still here. The same me. The same old me.

I stopped looking. And here I am.

I'm with the love of my life now.

Min Yoongi.

He saved from all of the hell I've been through. The hell you put me through.

He stayed with me and he loves me. And so do I.

After all this, I want to say thank you.

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I closed the journal and stared at it.

I sighed and put it back in the old box beside me.

"Mom!" I heard Jimin shout.

"He's trying to steal my toy again," He pointed at Taehyung.

"But it's mine!" Taehyung argued back.

"You're both wrong. It's mine!" Yoonji joined in. (welp)

"Stop it!" Yoongi said while holding Jungkook.

He walked over to the three and snatched the toy.

"None of you will get to play with it unless you make up," The three huffed as I giggled.

Then, I noticed a letter fall into the slot.

I picked it up and my name was written on it.

I told Yoongi and went into our room.

Dear (Y/N),
        It's me. The guy you were looking for. I'm sorry I just disappeared. I'm sorry I made your life like hell. It's just that I didn't want you to get hurt. I was threatened but now I'm free. You remember Namjoon hyung, right. I'm safe with him. I just wanted to say sorry and that I'm still here for you. I know you have a family now but I love you. Tell Jungkook, Taehyung, Jimin, and Yoonji about their Uncle Hobi. Tell Yoongi that I thank him for taking care of all of you. I hope that you take good care, (Y/N). See you.

Sincerely,
Jung Hoseok

I closed the letter and I tried not to let tears fall down. Yoongi entered the room with a smile. I ran to him and quickly gave him a big hug.

「 Hobi's POV」

I just wanted her to know how I feel one last time.

I made this sacrifice for her family.

It'll all be worth it.

I stared in front of me, still aching from the cut and bruises and the chain that held me.

The masked man stood there with a gun pointed at me.

"Good choice, kid," He laughed as I felt a burn on my chest.

See you, (Y/N).

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