Breakaway {Markiplier X OC & Lisbug X OC} BOOK ONE

chapter forty-four | | lynne

"She's gonna be okay," seemed to be the thing I heard the most. That she was going to be okay. That everything was going to be okay, like it was going to go back to the way it was before.

A part of me thought I deserved this. I deserved every bit of it. I let Lisa and Mark into my life. I let everyone into my life without thinking about how it would affect Bella.

I was so done with pretending everything was going to be okay. I wanted my sister back. The one who spent her days giggling in sunlight and pretending to climb stars - I wanted Isabella. Not this new girl. I didn't want a replica of me.

What would mother think of me now? She'd probably call me a disappointment, say I caused our lovely blonde a life of misery and sadness.

She'd probably tell me I didn't deserve to even be her sister. That I didn't deserve to even be alive. Who was I to break everyone's trust? To make Bella cut herself?

This was the girl who never had a bad bone in her body we're talking about. The girl who loved rainbows and daisies instead of diamonds and roses. This was the girl who always thanked God for her life. This was the girl who wanted to be known, who didn't want to be neglected.

...That's it, isn't it?

Neglect can kill. I've been torturing her this entire time, haven't I?

Why would I do this to a girl who never asked to be born?

What would Alex say to me?

She'd hate me just as much as my mother. Hell if she were still even with us she'd probably punch me in the teeth. I guess I deserve it all.

"It's going to be okay," Lisa said, pushing my hair back. I shook my head.

"You don't seem to get it, do you?" I asked angrily, my mind rushing to Luna and I - there on the floor. She held her tight and told her not to do it again but how does that make it okay? Bring it in the past? "She CUT herself. She was that depressed! She's seven!"

Lisa looked at me and sighed. Silence followed, for a few seconds, but I couldn't speak.

"...I don't think we should do this..." I said gently.

She looked to me in confusion. "Do what?" She asked.

"I don't think we should be together." I said quickly, the words coming off my tongue immediately. I couldn't even recognize that I said them. To me it was just silence.

She tilted her head for a second, a little surprised, but didn't say anything.

"I just don't want to hurt Bella anymore..." I said softly.

"Did I do something wrong?" She asked. I shook my head.

"What? No!" I said softly, knowing I couldn't take back my words. "I just...maybe it's just not working."

She nodded understandingly, "I get it, Lynne." She said.

I bit my lip as a tear fell from my eye. "I'm sorry." I said.

She smiled through her own misty eyes and moved a last strand of hair behind my ear. "Don't be sorry, Ly." She said.

I couldn't speak so instead I just sat in silence, not knowing how to talk after that.

As if on cue, I heard the scream from downstairs a few seconds later. I exchanged a look of confusion to Lisa as we ran down. Lunas hands were in her short hair and she was pacing.

"What the hell?!" screamed Jinxx from next to her as Mark tried to hold Luna back, calming her down with small and soft words.

"What happened?" Echo asked.

"Yeah, what the Hell is wrong?" I asked, running down the stairs.

Luna's eyes met mine in fear and desperation, giving Mark the time to hold her hand and squeeze it tight.

"Caleb's missing!" She shouted.