serenity | knj

XIII

"And he lied to me, he lied to me all the time"., I was sobbing while Jungkook held me in his arms and tried to comfort me.

"He never deserved you! Fuck that guy!" his tone was serious and a bit aggressive.

I was devastated, it was the first time having feelings like that.

"I loved him so much, Kookie.", I looked Jungkook straight into his eyes, while still crying my eyes out.

He shook his head and broke the eye contact with me while taking my hands into his and holding them tight.

"Jandi, you are the nicest, sweetest girl I ever knew. And anyone who doesn't see that is fucking stupid and blind.", Jungkook said quietly, while still not looking into my eyes.

"Jungkook, you are the best friend ever.", I said and hugged him tightly.

Standing up was hard that morning. I had spent the rest of the night, thinking about moments I had with Jungkook, moments where I didn't notice him developing feelings for me, the first time I saw him, that time he helped me through my first heartbreak. I felt like the worst human being on earth. Jungkook was one of the most important people for me, and I was scared of losing him. While he was there for me all of those times, I did nothing but hurt him. I finally made my way out of the bed, just right in time to not get late. I didn't feel like doing my makeup, doing my hair or wearing anything special. I picked out some ripped jeans and a black hoodie to wear and went to the shower, passing Jungkook's room, that was still closed. He probably will skip college today. I got myself ready, picked my stuff up and went outside. When I was about to close the door I heard a voice calling my name. I looked back and saw Jungkook standing at the door of his room, wearing nothing but boxer shorts and looking like a mess.

"Jandi...", he mumbled.

I flinched and looked at him shocked.

"W-What's wrong, Jungkook? Do you need something?", I stuttered a bit and felt unusually nervous as I talked to him.

"You're not mad at me, are you?"

He had a hard time trying to keep his eyes open. I stepped a little bit closer and saw his nose being swollen, the place around his right eye turned a bit blue. He looked at me, with strands of his messy hair covering his eyes. I walked up to him to take him into my arms.

"I don't want to lose you.", I whispered and hugged him tightly.

I felt his warm arms around my body and his head resting at my shoulder.

"I'm sorry for what I said.", he said with a raspy voice.

I stroke over his hair, still holding him tight against me, my other hand placed on his bare back, that felt so warm and soft.

This was probably the longest me and Jungkook ever held each other. I felt his heart beat fast against my body and loosened the hug.

"I'm going to be late.", I said and weakly smiled at him.

He nodded, looking down, embarrassed of what just happened, and went back into his room.

I left the house, with an uneasy feeling.