serenity | knj

XLII

Jandi's POV

I woke up the next morning, being held tightly by Namjoon's strong arms. I stroked over his skin that felt tight and warm. It made him wake up slowly and I was greeted by his tired eyes, that lit up as soon as they looked into mine.

"Good morning beautiful.", he said with a raspy voice and cuddled me even more.

The moment was beautiful and I wished it to never go away, but I knew I had something else to get done with.

"I have to go home.", I said and slowly stood up, collecting my clothes from the floor.

"Are you coming back?"

Namjoon watched every movement of me as I got dressed and stared at me with puppy eyes when I finished.

"Of course I'm coming back.", I said and kissed him on the lips.

He suggested that he would come with me, at least drive me home, but I knew that I had to do this by myself and I needed the time to think about how to talk to Jungkook.

Ever since I came back from my parents' he was very distant and seemed to be displeased with me being around. He would always ask at what time I would come home and be gone himself most of the time. It seemed suspicious to me, but honestly, I didn't care too much. My mind was busy with thinking about someone else anyway.

After a short bus ride, I arrived at home and made my way to the door. It was still early in the morning so I hoped Jungkook would be at home. He was, in fact, he even was awake, sitting on the couch as if he waited for me to come home.

"Jandi.", he greeted me and signed me to sit down with him.

I swallowed hard and thought about which words to choose again. It seemed like there weren't any words that would make the situation seem any less bad and I also didn't really know what the situation even was.

"Jungkook, I need to talk to you.", I said as I sat down and looked him into his eyes.

He shook his head. "I actually need to talk to you first."

I was surprised by his words and couldn't know what to expect.

"Jandi, I don't know how to say this without hurting you.", he spoke, trying to avoid looking into my eyes. "I cheated on you, many times."

I looked away, knowing that those words should've hurt me, but they didn't.

"I have an affair with a man." He shook his head at his own words. "It's more than an affair, I actually fell in love with him."

"What's his name?", I asked carefully, my voice sounding not like my own.

"Min Yoongi.", Jungkook said without any hesitation.

"With... Yoongi? The guy you insulted for being gay?"

Jungkook sighed deeply, burying his face into his hands.

"Jungkook..."

I carefully placed my hand on his back and tried to calm him. As I did so, I noticed that he was crying.

"I'm sorry.", he let out with what was left of his voice.

I clung my arms around him, slowly swinging him.

"I'm so sorry."

"Jungkook, it's okay."

His crying got heavier and louder, and it broke my heart seeing him like that. It was hard to fight back my own tears, but I had to stay strong for him.

It was the first time Jungkook opened up to me like that. The first time he was crying in my arms. It reminded me of old times, where he would comfort me. And suddenly everything felt okay again. The weird feelings I had for Jungkook, they were finally gone. There was only my honest love for him deep inside my heart, making me want only the best for him.

"Jungkook, it's okay. I'm okay.", I slowly said, loosening my hug from him and trying to look into his face.

"Find someone that thinks your arms are serenity, Jandi. You really deserve better.", he said quietly.

"Jungkook I have to tell you something, too.", I said and reached for his hands. "I was meeting someone behind your back all of this time. I fell for him but I tried to lie to myself. Instead, I was lying to you."

"We are both big liars lately." Jungkook chuckled a bit, hugging me.

"I want to meet your boyfriend, Jandi.", he suddenly said.

"Well, since Yoongi and Namjoon are friends too, let's do a double date." I laughed at my own words and felt so happy to see Jungkook's smile again.

"That's so corny.", Jungkook said and laughed.

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