serenity | knj

XXXVIII

"Are you cold?"

"No.", I said as I tried to stop myself from shivering.

Namjoon giggled a bit and got out of his jacket as he placed it on my shoulders.

"Now you'll get cold.", I mumbled and pulled the jacket, that smelled so much like him, closer on me. If only he would've known that I clung onto his hoodie every night since he gave it to me, so I could feel close to him.

"Alcohol keeps me warm.", he said and chugged down the rest of the bottle.

Namjoon really had a high tolerance and it made me worry a bit because he didn't seem drunk at all, while I had a hard time sitting up straight.

He placed his big hand on his knee and I had to force myself not to put my own on his. I really wanted to feel his soft looking skin so badly.

Namjoon caught me staring and smirked. "You're really cute when you're drunk.", he said and made me blush with his words.

Ever since I drove away, I stopped being so overly defensive about Namjoon. It seemed like I slowly started having more trust in him.

"Is everything alright with your boyfriend?", Namjoon suddenly asked before he slightly bit his lower lip.

I stuttered a bit before sighing and putting my face into my hands. Then I suddenly felt Namjoon's hand on my back, as he slowly moved it up and down.

"I don't know.", I mumbled into my hands and turned my head to face Namjoon. His expression was somewhat angry but he didn't move his hand away at any moment.

"When I came back, he seemed to be upset about it."

"Upset that you left?"

I shook my head and closed my eyes because it made me feel dizzy.

"Upset because I came back."

Namjoon furrowed his brows and moved closer to me. He embraced me into a hug and placed his chin on my head as he did so. His arms felt so warm, so serene.

"Do you..."

Namjoon hesitated a bit, pulling me even closer to him as if he was scared, that he would lose me if he didn't hold on tight enough.

"A-are you, umm... really in love with him?", he stuttered with an uncommonly soft voice.

I grabbed onto his shirt and slowly moved myself up. Namjoon kept his hands around me and I kept mine at his chest. We were looking into each other's eyes, our faces only centimeters apart.

I moved my other hand to his face and carefully placed it on his cheek. He gulped and I could see the panic in his eyes. Then Namjoon moved away some of my hair behind my ear and kept his hand on the back of my head.

"Don't be afraid.", he said as he gently stroked my hair.

I slowly moved my face closer to his, our lips almost touching as my heart beat faster than ever before.

I closed my eyes and all I felt were his soft plump lips on mine. Ever since I first saw Namjoon, being close to him was all I wanted to do. All I forced myself not to do.

I felt his hand longing for mine before he intertwined our fingers and kissed me for what felt like an eternity.

And all I wanted at that moment, was Namjoon to never stop kissing me.